The Collection

A collection of so many pieces
These pieces which create a whole
Never truly ever seen together
Yet each piece continues to grow old

A collection of beautiful pieces
Yet few only the eye can see
The owner holds on to each piece tightly
Rarely giving others one piece

A beautiful collection
I decided to give to you
Giving you the ability to piece together
All of my inner truths
Oh how much I have given
I have given so much of me
You had every piece that made me whole
You had every piece of me

A collection of so many pieces
These pieces which create a whole
I prayed and prayed and prayed to God
To find someone who could hold..
Hold on to every piece of me
Be there when I needed a friend
Accept me for who I am
Help soothe my doubts within
I thought I found that person..
That one who's hands were large enough to hold
But instead now my pieces
Are smaller pieces than before

A New Truth {Just Something on my Mind}

This is a piece I found that I wrote in 2008. I read it this morning and surprising I kind of feel the same way today. If all the negative energy was used for something positive, then so much could be accomplished. -Monica Renata


Quite frankly, I have been surrounded by so many negative people that I am shame to admit that I know. It appears that everyone has a problem with EVERYONE ELSE, and they can't seem to get along. And then I am put into the middle of the situation, and forced to choose a side. Everyone always gives me the excuse about, "Well who did you know for the longest?"........Well I thought about this like for so so long. And I couldn't even find the correct answer to this question. What am I to say? I knew you for two years but then I know the other for about one year. WHATS THE DIFFERENCE, I have no clue......But yeah, I finally found the answer to that question, and the answer is OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN THIS WHOLE WORLD, I knew ME for the longest.

I am sick and tired of people who want to always constantly go at it with other people. It's like WHAT IS THE DEAL???!!!! If they took all of this time and energy they use to be mean and disrespectful to others and do something productive, just imagine the possibilities. I am also tired of people just downgrading each other for doing the right thing. I don't mean to call anyone out, but SO WHAT IF I GO TO CLASS EVERYDAY!!!! I am paying for it, kinda. Besides, I do not want to be a NOBODY for the rest of my life. I am on a mission and I expect to reach my ultimate goal by 2015 {I know that is a long time, but I know what I am doing}.

I just don't understand.........Why does everyone have to be against each other? Why does some call others LAME just because they are doing the right thing? Why is it disregarded as nothing when someone finally achieves something that took so many long hours and dedication to obtain? Why do so many people create problems in their lives then a year or two down the road want to regret it?

All I am saying, is that some people need to think. For a long time, I thought the problem was me. However, I realized that EVERYTHING cannot be my fault. I try to make the world a better place. I lend a helping hand to all who ask for it. I try to be a friend to almost anyone who is willing......I just don't know..........Maybe I am too nice, but I do not think that anyone can ever be TOO NICE.....But we need to just get our act together. Stop being against each other. And try to work together for a better future.......I know that this whole thing probably was kinda cheesy......and some may be like "Oh, Monica needs to just shut up"......But truth is truth....Some of us just really need to get our act together.

Can't Bring Me Down

I can't give up

I can't let disappointments get the best of me

Sometimes I may fall.... 

But I have to get back up

I must get back up!!!

I can't let the world break me. 

I can't let them break me down

They can't

And they won't!!

I will rise up

stronger than before

stronger than I have ever been

Today opens up a new chapter

I am changing the end of my own book of life

Sometimes it is great to go astray

And that is what I shall do 

No more holding my head down

No more feeling ashamed

No more being untrue to myself

I have to make it 

I want to make it

And I will not let anyone bring me down this time

Genuine Kindness

Kindness....
Genuine Kindness...
What ever happened to this?
When was the last time you were kind to someone?
Not because you had to be kind...but because you wanted to be kind?

Sometimes we are so overwhelmed with our own lives that we think that we cannot spare an ounce of kindness. After all, it seems as though no one is taking time out of their day to show you "genuine kindness", so why should you bother showing someone else that?  We walk around each day and only think about me, Me, ME...but what about everyone else?

You are having a good day..someone else is having a good day too
You are having a bad day....someone else is having a bad day too
You are upset....someone else is upset too
But you will never know...
People are hard to read at times, but kindness has a way of making people smile

Genuine kindness...
That random kindness
That simple compliment
That helping hand...
People appreciate things like that..

It is true that some people do not appreciate kindness. They abuse those who are kind to them
But just because people like that exist, it doesn't mean that you should be afraid to be kind. You never know how your kindness can affect someone. Your encouraging words may give a young student the strength to finish school even though they were contemplating dropping out. Your assistance may make someone believe that it is possible to accomplish things they thought could never be reality. Your presence and support can make someone believe they are not alone.... Genuine kindness can do so much!!!

I guess what I am trying to say is........ Be kind to others. Others may not be kind to you, but be kind for yourself. It is such a blessing to reawaken a dead soul, and sometimes genuine kindness can do that for some people. Trust me... for kindness has done the same for me. :)

The Little Girl Who Believed

I can do this!

I can do this!

All I have to do is try!

You could look into this little girls’ eyes

And tell she wanted a prize

Can you see this?

I can do this!

All I have to do is try!

She was really passionate about her work

And no one could deny

Give me the chance!

And I will prove that I can!

Just give me one chance please!

Yet every time she begged for it

She would never get the chance

Please Please Please!

Let me try!

Just Give me one chance!

She always seemed to be adamant about her views

She only wanted a chance

Give me a chance

That is all I wanted

I wanted someone to see

That if given the opportunity

I could be all that I could be

Everything I have ever earned

I had to work two times five times

Because even the ones who believed in me

Always had to deny

Deny my willpower

Deny my energy

They said I was wasting my time

They questioned why I was trying to be

Someone who I was not

But the funny thing is

If I was given the chance

I could work towards a better me

And then I could prove to them

I could be who I wanted to be

I could have developed as a person early on

And not put down on the spot

I would have been better at speaking

I would have had experience doing what I love

I would have experienced a lot

Instead they didn’t believe in me

And I moving on

I can’t fault them for what they have done

Because now I am strong

I have grown up to realize

That I could be anyone I want to be

And if I am never given the opportunity

I can open the door myself for me

I will find my true calling

I will rise over the word NO

Because I know that I can prosper

And I can do things on my own

That little girl who believed

Still resides in me

But now instead of believing

She can now fully see

She opened up her eyes

She helps all in need

Because she believes that one day

There will be people who help those who too believe