Pretty Little Picture

Pretty Little Picture

By: Monica Renata

Pretty little picture

I decided to paint of you

It had flowers blooming beautifully

And the sky was a nice blue

Pretty little picture

In the corner I was standing there

Arms wide open waiting for your hug

And for you to toss me in the air

The weather always lovely

The setting always nice

No rainy days upon us

Just beautiful sunny skies

Frozen in a moment of time

That I wished to always be

In a world of endless beauty

That surrounds both you and me

Pretty little picture

I decided to paint for you

Encompassed all my feelings

Showed my dreams if there were to come true

Sitting on my window pane

Sometimes I wish it was more

Than just a pretty little picture

That remains while we are no more

Monica Renata 

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Some things will never change

“Some things will never change”…….

Sometimes saying this sounds so negative. Usually when we utter these words, it is in pure disappointment. We never truly wish positive situations to change, but we hope and pray that negative situations do.

Sometimes, there are situations in which in order for them to change that would require the efforts of another individual. Just by bringing that individual in the equation there is a 50/50 chance that you will either fail or succeed……

I thought things would get better with time. I thought that some things would change…. I prayed that some things would change…….. I wishes and cried and hoped that some things would change….but you know what…. They didn’t. No matter how much I wanted the situation to be different, it did not matter because it involved more than just me.

Sometimes we are so hard on ourselves. We cast the blame fully on us. We get on our knees and look to the sky and say “Why me?”……….but why? …. Do we not realize that although in some situations we are fully to blame, in others we are only partly? For example, it is like a race in which you have to tag the other person to start running. If you are ahead of the competition and then you tap your partners hand and he or she refuses to finish the race and you come in dead last, is it your fault that you lost? It may be partly your fault, but the blame is moreso on the other person because they didn’t even try.

Some things will never change………….I said how I felt, I showed how I wanted to be treated….I really did try…….but my effort was cancelled out by the lack of effort on the other person’s part. In order for change to occur, positive forces must interact. Change is cancelled out when a positive and a negative force collide…I realize this…. And despite how unhappy it makes me, I just have to realize that some things never change……

I thought things would get better with time. I thought that some things would change…. I prayed that some things would change…….. I wishes and cried and hoped that some things would change….but you know what…. They didn’t. No matter how much I wanted the situation to be different, it did not matter because it involved more than just me…..and I can’t force others to change………

Just something to think about…. Have a great day.

-Monica Renata

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Pretty Flowers

Pretty Flowers

By: Monica Renata

He gives me pretty flowers

Every single day

He tells me I am special

In every single way

He makes me feel so lovely

And also bubbly inside

He makes me realize dreams do come true

And I am destined to fly

He makes me feel so many things

Even though I may feel that I am not

He makes me smile on the many days

In which it was happiness I forgot

To be his friend is a blessing

I’m so happy to have him in my life

He gives me pretty flowers

And I cherish him a lot

“Sometimes you never truly realize how much of a dramatic effect a tiny gesture of kindness can have…..Genuine kindness can help a neglected flower grow again” –Monica Renata

Confessions of the Heart

Confessions of the Heart

By: Monica Renata

Truth is I really care for you

Honestly, I do

Yet my heart cannot fully take

All you put me through

Truth is you make me smile

You make me smile on countless days

Yet the times when I am sad

You make me feel ashamed

Wrapped up in my own emotions

Trying to gain shelter from the storm

That you created with your words

That seems to keep getting strong

Wind whipping at my face

Rain flooding up to my neck

Drowning in my love for you

That you don’t seem to get

Truth is, I really want you

Honestly, I do

But what am I to think

When I am constantly abused

Taken advantage of daily

Yet you think I’m blind and cannot see

I’m just a stepping stone to your future success

And you step right over me

This weight I bear is heavy

I can no longer help you if you don’t help me

Truth is, I really love you

But I have to start loving me

Monica Renata 

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Never-Ending Time

Never-Ending Time

By: Monica Renata

The time seems never-ending

Each second never really stops

The world is constantly spinning

The clock still goes tick tock

People come one minute

And then the next minute they are gone

Memories are made in a second

Yet are remembered years later just by playing a song

Friendships last forever

Memories seem to never fade

The wonderful joys of living

That we should appreciate for the rest of our days

The time seems never-ending

Each second never really stops

The world is constantly spinning

The clock still goes tick tock

People come one minute

And the next minute they may be gone

Memories are made in mere seconds

But we are reminded of them at the play of a song

Appreciate the time you have

For time does not always last

Appreciate the people you have in your life

Before they become the people that you had

Time seems never-ending

But in reality it is not

That’s why I shall cherish every day

Even though it may not seem like a lot

“Each day is a blessing. Appreciate what you have and continue to smile…….” –Monica Renata

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Mr. Care Too Much

Mr. Care Too Much

By: Monica Renata 

In the midst of sunny days

Yet drowning in constant rainfall

Lives the man who lives each and every day

Afraid that he will fall

Fall into a deep spell

That he can never seem to let go

He is afraid to fall in love

Because of the truths society holds

To care too much is crushing

And heart shattering to say the least

For if you care too much for someone

You might no longer be able to see

Blinded by this stain called loved

Judgment distorted every day

He cared so much for others deeply

That he wishes his heart to go away

But to deprive the world of something great

Of something so hard to find

Would be like robbing the world’s strongest man

Of his beautiful hazel eyes

For the heart not only beats for you

It also beats for me

And the heart radiates happiness

In all that we may see

They call him Mr. Care Too Much

He has a great big heart

He is loving and also kind

He is also giving and smart

Yet the one thing that I love so much

He can’t really see

He has the most beautiful gift

That I wish resided in me

A heart so full of hope and splendor

Beautiful as the sun’s rays

He has a heart that showers so many with love

And that I shall envy for all days

“Sometimes the greatest hearts go through the most pain………..but those hearts also bring the most joy too. Never wish away a loving heart, for one day when you finally need it, it will be no more………” –Monica Renata 

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I Have Been Thinking

I Have Been Thinking
By: Monica Renata 

I have been thinking
A lot lately
Kind of lost
In my own words

Thoughts falling like raindrops
Landing on the wings of a bird
So many thoughts surround me
Yet I cannot speak
I been thinking a lot lately
And my thoughts are consumed with me

I have been thinking
A lot lately
Kind of lost
In my own words

I am the world’s greatest melody
That has yet to be heard
To twirl around greatness
To bow at no one’s feet
I’ve been thinking a lot lately
Wondering why I can’t see

I have been thinking
A lot lately
Kind of lost
In my own words

Yet I still remain silent
Silently waiting to be heard
To have thoughts float deep within
Yet not utter a peep
I’ve been thinking a lot lately
Wondering why you don’t think of me

Monica Renata 

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HappyTown: The Train Stop

HappyTown: The Train Stop

By: Monica Renata

On the gloomy streets of HappyTown

It never came to a complete stop

It kept on making its marvelous sound

It arrived each time on the dot

Looking like a tube of marvelous steel

Handcrafted by hard working men

The speed that was unrelenting

The speed that left behind huge gusts of wind

To stand at the vacant train stop

Waiting to be here no more

But the train won’t stop in HappyTown

And this is something that I abhor

On the gloomy streets of HappyTown

Surrounded by many who can’t see

That being happy is more than this town

Being happy resides within you and me

To leave your place of comfort

Doesn’t have to be all that bad

For being complacent in life

Is what should really make you feel sad

There is more to life than your comfort zone

Even though it is a happy spot

So I shall wait on that Choo-Choo train

Until it finally stops

“Sometimes we believe that happiness is only obtainable in our comfort zone. This prevents us from venturing outwards….But there is happiness outside your comfort zone. You just have to give yourself the opportunity to realize this” –Monica Renata

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The Tears of the Willow

Sometimes my mind wanders

And then I begin to cry

And my mind is consumed with thoughts

And I end up asking why

My heart starts to beat faster

And then my breath seems to go slow

My palms get sweaty

And then I walk out the door

I look at all the trees

I feel the cool air on my skin

But I cannot escape one thing

That is the wrath deep within

My skin starts to get hot

My stomach begins to cramp

I am doing so much thinking

That I feel like I am killing myself

I look forward and see everything

Yet I cannot take everything in

Something is happening within my mind

And I keep reliving a moment again and again

I love you……..

I think to myself

But I know it doesn’t matter

I always stuck by your side

No matter what happened

But what is love when you feel so bad

What is a feeling that isn’t returned?

I work myself up for disappointment

Yet I always return

I would say you have me hooked on you

But I haven’t a clue

I know I care about you

But do I care about myself too?

The air seems so calm out side

And I sit under the tree

I feel something wet on my face

Something I thought came from the tree

But how can this be??

It is sunny outside

Rain can’t come today

But the weeping willow is crying

And I think it is crying for me today

Monica Renata 

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If I Didn't Care

If I Didn’t Care

By: Monica Renata

If I didn’t care about you

If I didn’t care at all

I would no longer be there for you

I wouldn’t try to catch you when you fall

If I didn’t care about you

If there was no feeling left in me

I wouldn’t extend my kindness

Even though you hurt me terribly

In pain there is some pleasure

In light there is always dark

And so may I rise one day

And then another day I may fall

To dwell in the past

And let the future not arise

Would be a terrible terrible waste

Of my own heart and mind

If I didn’t care about you

There would be so many things I would not do

But instead I sit there quietly

While I watch you abuse

Abuse my kindness

Abuse my heart

You trampled over me

I cared about you so much

That I was blind and could not see

If I didn’t care about you

If I didn’t care at all

I would harbor so much hate in my heart

I would wish that you never rise but fall

But instead I keep a home for you

In a part of my heart so deep

And despite all the pain you put me through

My care for you never ceased

“Life is too short to let hate consume your heart…Everyone should be forgiven….Forgiveness helps you heal in the long run.” –Monica Renata

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I'm Not Your ________________

I’m Not Your ______________

By: Monica Renata

I’m not your cup of tea

That you marvel at the taste

With a splash of lemon and cubes of ice

On an extra warm sunny day

I’m not your simple melody

That you know the pattern of the tune

My song is a bit dramatic

And it changes when I enter rooms

I’m not

I’m not

I’m not

I am not many things

But hopefully you find it in your heart

To someday let me be

Your ray of perfect sunshine

Your beautiful glowing moon

I wish to be your dreams come alive

I wish to be your wish come true

I’m not the most perfect person on earth

I’m not the best in the room

I may not even be your first choice

But oh how I would really like to

I’m not your dream or fantasy

I’m not your highlight of every day

But I wish to be your everything

Hopefully you give me the chance one day

For I may not be what you want

But I believe I am what you need

For I can offer you love everlasting

Even though I am not what you may want me to be

“Sometimes if you give someone a chance you will realize that they are exactly what you dreamed of……… Sometimes we quickly disregard others without even knowing who they really are. You may one day pass up a true gem by judging the outside so rapidly……..” –Monica Renata

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