My Dream of Me and You

If eternities really lasted forever

And skies were always blue

I would sit under the biggest tree

And profess my love to you

If the night sky always stayed still

And the moon shined bright in the sky too

I would lay underneath the stars

And dream of me and you

So many times I ponder

On what you and I could be

I reminiscence about the time together

And wonder if you would ever leave

The uncertainty of it all kills me

But it doesn't kill my heart

Which keeps beating for you every single second

That you and I are apart

If things could be my way

I would have everything including you

But instead I will sit here and wait

Til my dream of you and I come true

The Morning Hustle

Stumbling on forgotten sleep
Awaken from my slumber
My body moves in  decrepit ways
But my bed I can rest in no longer

The morning dew is beautiful out
Yet no birds are there to sing
For I had to rise before the sun
I do this every day

What is my motivation?
It's called a J.O.B.
For I would rather lose countless slumber
Than wake up each morning without a place to be

And yes I do value
The days that I have away
For when I am free from work
I can slumber all night and day

Work shouldn't consume your life. You should work to get the money that you want to live the life you want to live. That is its only purpose. Enjoy your life! -Monica Renata

The Climb

Climbing up this mountain

Gripping trying not to fall

I put aside all my fear

I will not be overwhelmed by it all

The sun radiates down

And the wind whips across my back

I feel my heart beat faster

And then my body starts to react

My grip gets much tighter

My feet lock in place too

I am like a little spider

Trying to climb out of a glass of juice

But yet I cannot give up

And I will not give up now

I reach up ahead of me

And I never look back down

I keep going til I am almost there

And then my fingers bleed

But this is just one trouble

I will have to suck up indeed

Hand, Foot

Hand, Hand, Foot

Seems to be the pattern of the climb

And then I feel a blade of grass

And I know the win is mines

Life is full of challenges

Some are mountains indeed

But just have faith in yourself

And always believe

Believe that you are capable

Believe that you can accomplish all

Because you will be surprised at the things you can accomplish

Even though they are so tall

They always said I couldn't do it

They said it was too much for me

But I have climbed a mountain every day

And the mountain is the one who faced defeat

Life is full of challenges. Some are big and some are small. Sometimes we complain about hills in life, and fear the mountains because they are so tall. But every goal can be accomplished, and it all starts within you. For you can complete any climb, if to yourself you are always true!!  -Monica Renata

The Last Kiss

A kiss
Something that can mean so little
Yet also mean the most
I sit down and I wonder
I ponder what it would be like
For they are the object of my desire
Yet, I am afraid
I am afraid to make a move because I am doubtful
But I wonder
Could this be it.....
Could this be the first kiss that turns into the last kiss of my life
Could this person be the one to open my eyes to a new world I have yet to encounter
Hmmmm....

I never encountered a love like this

You are the my first and my last kiss

Emotion so raw and yet so true

All of my emotions that I have for you

Two souls connecting 

Dancing lightly in air

I can feel it in my heart

Because in my heart you are there

So unbelievable 

I never thought it to be true

Two souls intertwined 

As lovers do

Flesh touches flesh

And bodies unite

You grab me softly

I don't want to leave from your sight

Kiss me so passionately 

Like true loves do

My first

My last

Will always be you

My Favorite Flowers

Just like my favorite flowers

So beautiful and bright

Enhances the mood of the room

Radiates in the light

Each petal is uniquely beautiful

The fragrance smells so divine

You remind me of my favorite flowers

Only difference is that you get better with time

The Collection

A collection of so many pieces
These pieces which create a whole
Never truly ever seen together
Yet each piece continues to grow old

A collection of beautiful pieces
Yet few only the eye can see
The owner holds on to each piece tightly
Rarely giving others one piece

A beautiful collection
I decided to give to you
Giving you the ability to piece together
All of my inner truths
Oh how much I have given
I have given so much of me
You had every piece that made me whole
You had every piece of me

A collection of so many pieces
These pieces which create a whole
I prayed and prayed and prayed to God
To find someone who could hold..
Hold on to every piece of me
Be there when I needed a friend
Accept me for who I am
Help soothe my doubts within
I thought I found that person..
That one who's hands were large enough to hold
But instead now my pieces
Are smaller pieces than before

Pretty, Pretty, Pretty

Pretty, Pretty, Pretty
That's what they say to me
Yet they take no time
To see what's underneath

Pretty, Pretty, Pretty
That's what they seem to see
But what if all of this makeup
Quickly went away

Pretty, oh so pretty
What it is like being a girl
Being valued by her physical appearance
While her insides are ignored by the world

Grandpa Said

Grandpa told me  many things

I still remember what he said

He said treat others with kindness

And don't let success go to your head

He said appreciate the little things

Because those are the things that matter the most

Don't ever forget where you came from

Because it will help you get to where you plan to go

Oh I still remember

All the things that grandpa said

So I live life according to this

And I must admit life is going swell

Who knew that those few words

Could fit exactly into life

Grandpa told me many things

And grandpa was very right

A New Truth {Just Something on my Mind}

This is a piece I found that I wrote in 2008. I read it this morning and surprising I kind of feel the same way today. If all the negative energy was used for something positive, then so much could be accomplished. -Monica Renata


Quite frankly, I have been surrounded by so many negative people that I am shame to admit that I know. It appears that everyone has a problem with EVERYONE ELSE, and they can't seem to get along. And then I am put into the middle of the situation, and forced to choose a side. Everyone always gives me the excuse about, "Well who did you know for the longest?"........Well I thought about this like for so so long. And I couldn't even find the correct answer to this question. What am I to say? I knew you for two years but then I know the other for about one year. WHATS THE DIFFERENCE, I have no clue......But yeah, I finally found the answer to that question, and the answer is OUT OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN THIS WHOLE WORLD, I knew ME for the longest.

I am sick and tired of people who want to always constantly go at it with other people. It's like WHAT IS THE DEAL???!!!! If they took all of this time and energy they use to be mean and disrespectful to others and do something productive, just imagine the possibilities. I am also tired of people just downgrading each other for doing the right thing. I don't mean to call anyone out, but SO WHAT IF I GO TO CLASS EVERYDAY!!!! I am paying for it, kinda. Besides, I do not want to be a NOBODY for the rest of my life. I am on a mission and I expect to reach my ultimate goal by 2015 {I know that is a long time, but I know what I am doing}.

I just don't understand.........Why does everyone have to be against each other? Why does some call others LAME just because they are doing the right thing? Why is it disregarded as nothing when someone finally achieves something that took so many long hours and dedication to obtain? Why do so many people create problems in their lives then a year or two down the road want to regret it?

All I am saying, is that some people need to think. For a long time, I thought the problem was me. However, I realized that EVERYTHING cannot be my fault. I try to make the world a better place. I lend a helping hand to all who ask for it. I try to be a friend to almost anyone who is willing......I just don't know..........Maybe I am too nice, but I do not think that anyone can ever be TOO NICE.....But we need to just get our act together. Stop being against each other. And try to work together for a better future.......I know that this whole thing probably was kinda cheesy......and some may be like "Oh, Monica needs to just shut up"......But truth is truth....Some of us just really need to get our act together.

Can't Bring Me Down

I can't give up

I can't let disappointments get the best of me

Sometimes I may fall.... 

But I have to get back up

I must get back up!!!

I can't let the world break me. 

I can't let them break me down

They can't

And they won't!!

I will rise up

stronger than before

stronger than I have ever been

Today opens up a new chapter

I am changing the end of my own book of life

Sometimes it is great to go astray

And that is what I shall do 

No more holding my head down

No more feeling ashamed

No more being untrue to myself

I have to make it 

I want to make it

And I will not let anyone bring me down this time

Keep

Keep in mind those feelings
Keep in mind the words you say
Keep in mind your actions
For these affect others each day

Keep in mind your tone of voice
Keep in mind the way you slant your eyes
For they can make others feel as though they shouldn't speak to you at times

Keep in mind the ones you care about
Keep in mind how you don't want them to go away
Fix your problems within your world
Don't let your problems drive others away

Keep in mind those feelings
Keep in mind the words you say..
Because sometimes when you act recklessly
You make others walk away

Don't let the stresses of the world push away people who actually care about you. Learn how to not exert the anger from other faucets of your life upon those who love you....for if you don't...they might walk away. Don't throw away something you always thought you would keep. -Monica Renata

Genuine Kindness

Kindness....
Genuine Kindness...
What ever happened to this?
When was the last time you were kind to someone?
Not because you had to be kind...but because you wanted to be kind?

Sometimes we are so overwhelmed with our own lives that we think that we cannot spare an ounce of kindness. After all, it seems as though no one is taking time out of their day to show you "genuine kindness", so why should you bother showing someone else that?  We walk around each day and only think about me, Me, ME...but what about everyone else?

You are having a good day..someone else is having a good day too
You are having a bad day....someone else is having a bad day too
You are upset....someone else is upset too
But you will never know...
People are hard to read at times, but kindness has a way of making people smile

Genuine kindness...
That random kindness
That simple compliment
That helping hand...
People appreciate things like that..

It is true that some people do not appreciate kindness. They abuse those who are kind to them
But just because people like that exist, it doesn't mean that you should be afraid to be kind. You never know how your kindness can affect someone. Your encouraging words may give a young student the strength to finish school even though they were contemplating dropping out. Your assistance may make someone believe that it is possible to accomplish things they thought could never be reality. Your presence and support can make someone believe they are not alone.... Genuine kindness can do so much!!!

I guess what I am trying to say is........ Be kind to others. Others may not be kind to you, but be kind for yourself. It is such a blessing to reawaken a dead soul, and sometimes genuine kindness can do that for some people. Trust me... for kindness has done the same for me. :)

Life is Beautiful

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

But what is there to hold

For life changes everyday

It will continue to change until we grow old

But what is the point of loving something

Exactly as it is now

For when time moves forward each second

Things seem to change somehow