Memory Walls

A memory placed deep in my mind

So deep that it can't be reached

A memory that is embedded inside

A memory of which my mouth won't speak

To reveal it would cause so much pain

But for me it would cause release

A memory that replays over and over in my mind

A memory I hope no one seeks

Sometimes opening up and being honest

Is the hardest part....

You have so much to tell someone

But in that moment you are lost....

What are you to do when you want to speak

But fear is preventing you from doing so?

Why can't you stop thinking about this memory

Which happened so long ago?

A memory placed deep in my mind

So deep that it can't be reached

I want to tell the truth this time

But there is so much fear inside of me

What's the point of saying something

Or even bringing it up? 

For it is a memory in my head

That I have lived enough

But slowly it is taking over

And I adjust my life accordingly

For fear of revealing this memory

Makes me unable to see

See the true wonders in life

See the true world around me

But this memory will stay deep in my mind

While it dictates my life to me

"Don't let one situation dictate how your entire life will be......" -Monica Renata