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Monday, July 21, 2014

Pretty Little Picture

Pretty Little Picture
By: Monica Renata

Pretty little picture
I decided to paint of you
It had flowers blooming beautifully
And the sky was a nice blue

Pretty little picture
In the corner I was standing there
Arms wide open waiting for your hug
And for you to toss me in the air

The weather always lovely
The setting always nice
No rainy days upon us
Just beautiful sunny skies

Frozen in a moment of time
That I wished to always be
In a world of endless beauty
That surrounds both you and me

Pretty little picture
I decided to paint for you
Encompassed all my feelings
Showed my dreams if there were to come true

Sitting on my window pane
Sometimes I wish it was more
Than just a pretty little picture
That remains while we are no more

Monica Renata 
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Some things will never change

“Some things will never change”…….

Sometimes saying this sounds so negative. Usually when we utter these words, it is in pure disappointment. We never truly wish positive situations to change, but we hope and pray that negative situations do.

Sometimes, there are situations in which in order for them to change that would require the efforts of another individual. Just by bringing that individual in the equation there is a 50/50 chance that you will either fail or succeed……

I thought things would get better with time. I thought that some things would change…. I prayed that some things would change…….. I wishes and cried and hoped that some things would change….but you know what…. They didn’t. No matter how much I wanted the situation to be different, it did not matter because it involved more than just me.

Sometimes we are so hard on ourselves. We cast the blame fully on us. We get on our knees and look to the sky and say “Why me?”……….but why? …. Do we not realize that although in some situations we are fully to blame, in others we are only partly? For example, it is like a race in which you have to tag the other person to start running. If you are ahead of the competition and then you tap your partners hand and he or she refuses to finish the race and you come in dead last, is it your fault that you lost? It may be partly your fault, but the blame is moreso on the other person because they didn’t even try.

Some things will never change………….I said how I felt, I showed how I wanted to be treated….I really did try…….but my effort was cancelled out by the lack of effort on the other person’s part. In order for change to occur, positive forces must interact. Change is cancelled out when a positive and a negative force collide…I realize this…. And despite how unhappy it makes me, I just have to realize that some things never change……
I thought things would get better with time. I thought that some things would change…. I prayed that some things would change…….. I wishes and cried and hoped that some things would change….but you know what…. They didn’t. No matter how much I wanted the situation to be different, it did not matter because it involved more than just me…..and I can’t force others to change………

Just something to think about…. Have a great day.

-Monica Renata

Monica Renata 
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Pretty Flowers

Pretty Flowers
By: Monica Renata

He gives me pretty flowers
Every single day
He tells me I am special
In every single way

He makes me feel so lovely
And also bubbly inside
He makes me realize dreams do come true
And I am destined to fly

He makes me feel so many things
Even though I may feel that I am not
He makes me smile on the many days
In which it was happiness I forgot

To be his friend is a blessing
I’m so happy to have him in my life
He gives me pretty flowers
And I cherish him a lot


“Sometimes you never truly realize how much of a dramatic effect a tiny gesture of kindness can have…..Genuine kindness can help a neglected flower grow again” –Monica Renata


Thursday, July 17, 2014

Confessions of the Heart

Confessions of the Heart
By: Monica Renata

Truth is I really care for you
Honestly, I do
Yet my heart cannot fully take
All you put me through

Truth is you make me smile
You make me smile on countless days
Yet the times when I am sad
You make me feel ashamed

Wrapped up in my own emotions
Trying to gain shelter from the storm
That you created with your words
That seems to keep getting strong

Wind whipping at my face
Rain flooding up to my neck
Drowning in my love for you
That you don’t seem to get

Truth is, I really want you
Honestly, I do
But what am I to think
When I am constantly abused

Taken advantage of daily
Yet you think I’m blind and cannot see
I’m just a stepping stone to your future success
And you step right over me

This weight I bear is heavy
I can no longer help you if you don’t help me
Truth is, I really love you

But I have to start loving me


Monica Renata 
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Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Never-Ending Time

Never-Ending Time
By: Monica Renata

The time seems never-ending
Each second never really stops
The world is constantly spinning
The clock still goes tick tock

People come one minute
And then the next minute they are gone
Memories are made in a second
Yet are remembered years later just by playing a song

Friendships last forever
Memories seem to never fade
The wonderful joys of living
That we should appreciate for the rest of our days

The time seems never-ending
Each second never really stops
The world is constantly spinning
The clock still goes tick tock

People come one minute
And the next minute they may be gone
Memories are made in mere seconds
But we are reminded of them at the play of a song

Appreciate the time you have
For time does not always last
Appreciate the people you have in your life
Before they become the people that you had

Time seems never-ending
But in reality it is not
That’s why I shall cherish every day
Even though it may not seem like a lot

“Each day is a blessing. Appreciate what you have and continue to smile…….” –Monica Renata


Monica Renata 
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Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Mr. Care Too Much

Mr. Care Too Much
By: Monica Renata 

In the midst of sunny days
Yet drowning in constant rainfall
Lives the man who lives each and every day
Afraid that he will fall

Fall into a deep spell
That he can never seem to let go
He is afraid to fall in love
Because of the truths society holds

To care too much is crushing
And heart shattering to say the least
For if you care too much for someone
You might no longer be able to see

Blinded by this stain called loved
Judgment distorted every day
He cared so much for others deeply
That he wishes his heart to go away

But to deprive the world of something great
Of something so hard to find
Would be like robbing the world’s strongest man
Of his beautiful hazel eyes

For the heart not only beats for you
It also beats for me
And the heart radiates happiness
In all that we may see

They call him Mr. Care Too Much
He has a great big heart
He is loving and also kind
He is also giving and smart

Yet the one thing that I love so much
He can’t really see
He has the most beautiful gift
That I wish resided in me

A heart so full of hope and splendor
Beautiful as the sun’s rays
He has a heart that showers so many with love
And that I shall envy for all days


“Sometimes the greatest hearts go through the most pain………..but those hearts also bring the most joy too. Never wish away a loving heart, for one day when you finally need it, it will be no more………” –Monica Renata 


Monica Renata 
My Book: 
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https://www.createspace.com/4430912
The Awkward Butterfly: http://amzn.com/B00EP5A484


Wednesday, June 25, 2014

I Have Been Thinking

I Have Been Thinking
By: Monica Renata 

I have been thinking
A lot lately
Kind of lost
In my own words

Thoughts falling like raindrops
Landing on the wings of a bird
So many thoughts surround me
Yet I cannot speak
I been thinking a lot lately
And my thoughts are consumed with me

I have been thinking
A lot lately
Kind of lost
In my own words

I am the world’s greatest melody
That has yet to be heard
To twirl around greatness
To bow at no one’s feet
I’ve been thinking a lot lately
Wondering why I can’t see

I have been thinking
A lot lately
Kind of lost
In my own words

Yet I still remain silent
Silently waiting to be heard
To have thoughts float deep within
Yet not utter a peep
I’ve been thinking a lot lately
Wondering why you don’t think of me


Monica Renata 
My Book: 
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https://www.createspace.com/4430912
The Awkward Butterfly: http://amzn.com/B00EP5A484


Tuesday, June 24, 2014

HappyTown: The Train Stop

HappyTown: The Train Stop
By: Monica Renata

On the gloomy streets of HappyTown
It never came to a complete stop
It kept on making its marvelous sound
It arrived each time on the dot

Looking like a tube of marvelous steel
Handcrafted by hard working men
The speed that was unrelenting
The speed that left behind huge gusts of wind

To stand at the vacant train stop
Waiting to be here no more
But the train won’t stop in HappyTown
And this is something that I abhor

On the gloomy streets of HappyTown
Surrounded by many who can’t see
That being happy is more than this town
Being happy resides within you and me

To leave your place of comfort
Doesn’t have to be all that bad
For being complacent in life
Is what should really make you feel sad

There is more to life than your comfort zone
Even though it is a happy spot
So I shall wait on that Choo-Choo train
Until it finally stops

“Sometimes we believe that happiness is only obtainable in our comfort zone. This prevents us from venturing outwards….But there is happiness outside your comfort zone. You just have to give yourself the opportunity to realize this” –Monica Renata




Monica Renata 
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Monday, June 23, 2014

The Tears of the Willow

Sometimes my mind wanders
And then I begin to cry
And my mind is consumed with thoughts
And I end up asking why

My heart starts to beat faster
And then my breath seems to go slow
My palms get sweaty
And then I walk out the door

I look at all the trees
I feel the cool air on my skin
But I cannot escape one thing
That is the wrath deep within

My skin starts to get hot
My stomach begins to cramp
I am doing so much thinking
That I feel like I am killing myself

I look forward and see everything
Yet I cannot take everything in
Something is happening within my mind
And I keep reliving a moment again and again

I love you……..
I think to myself
But I know it doesn’t matter
I always stuck by your side
No matter what happened

But what is love when you feel so bad
What is a feeling that isn’t returned?
I work myself up for disappointment
Yet I always return

I would say you have me hooked on you
But I haven’t a clue
I know I care about you
But do I care about myself too?

The air seems so calm out side
And I sit under the tree
I feel something wet on my face
Something I thought came from the tree

But how can this be??
It is sunny outside
Rain can’t come today
But the weeping willow is crying

And I think it is crying for me today




Monica Renata 
My Book: 
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The Awkward Butterfly: http://amzn.com/B00EP5A484



If I Didn't Care

If I Didn’t Care
By: Monica Renata

If I didn’t care about you
If I didn’t care at all
I would no longer be there for you
I wouldn’t try to catch you when you fall

If I didn’t care about you
If there was no feeling left in me
I wouldn’t extend my kindness
Even though you hurt me terribly

In pain there is some pleasure
In light there is always dark
And so may I rise one day
And then another day I may fall

To dwell in the past
And let the future not arise
Would be a terrible terrible waste
Of my own heart and mind

If I didn’t care about you
There would be so many things I would not do
But instead I sit there quietly
While I watch you abuse

Abuse my kindness
Abuse my heart
You trampled over me
I cared about you so much
That I was blind and could not see

If I didn’t care about you
If I didn’t care at all
I would harbor so much hate in my heart
I would wish that you never rise but fall

But instead I keep a home for you
In a part of my heart so deep
And despite all the pain you put me through
My care for you never ceased

“Life is too short to let hate consume your heart…Everyone should be forgiven….Forgiveness helps you heal in the long run.” –Monica Renata


Monica Renata 
My Book: 
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The Awkward Butterfly: http://amzn.com/B00EP5A484






I'm Not Your ________________

I’m Not Your ______________
By: Monica Renata

I’m not your cup of tea
That you marvel at the taste
With a splash of lemon and cubes of ice
On an extra warm sunny day

I’m not your simple melody
That you know the pattern of the tune
My song is a bit dramatic
And it changes when I enter rooms

I’m not
I’m not
I’m not
I am not many things

But hopefully you find it in your heart
To someday let me be

Your ray of perfect sunshine
Your beautiful glowing moon
I wish to be your dreams come alive
I wish to be your wish come true

I’m not the most perfect person on earth
I’m not the best in the room
I may not even be your first choice
But oh how I would really like to

I’m not your dream or fantasy
I’m not your highlight of every day
But I wish to be your everything
Hopefully you give me the chance one day

For I may not be what you want
But I believe I am what you need
For I can offer you love everlasting
Even though I am not what you may want me to be

“Sometimes if you give someone a chance you will realize that they are exactly what you dreamed of……… Sometimes we quickly disregard others without even knowing who they really are. You may one day pass up a true gem by judging the outside so rapidly……..” –Monica Renata

Monica Renata 
My Book: 
CreateSpace: 
https://www.createspace.com/4430912
The Awkward Butterfly: http://amzn.com/B00EP5A484