I'm Not Your ________________

I’m Not Your ______________

By: Monica Renata

I’m not your cup of tea

That you marvel at the taste

With a splash of lemon and cubes of ice

On an extra warm sunny day

I’m not your simple melody

That you know the pattern of the tune

My song is a bit dramatic

And it changes when I enter rooms

I’m not

I’m not

I’m not

I am not many things

But hopefully you find it in your heart

To someday let me be

Your ray of perfect sunshine

Your beautiful glowing moon

I wish to be your dreams come alive

I wish to be your wish come true

I’m not the most perfect person on earth

I’m not the best in the room

I may not even be your first choice

But oh how I would really like to

I’m not your dream or fantasy

I’m not your highlight of every day

But I wish to be your everything

Hopefully you give me the chance one day

For I may not be what you want

But I believe I am what you need

For I can offer you love everlasting

Even though I am not what you may want me to be

“Sometimes if you give someone a chance you will realize that they are exactly what you dreamed of……… Sometimes we quickly disregard others without even knowing who they really are. You may one day pass up a true gem by judging the outside so rapidly……..” –Monica Renata

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Mistakes

Mistakes

By: Monica Renata

I need to take a step forward

But decided to take a step back

For going forward had uncertainty

And I knew of all that was left back

Consciously planning my decision

Yet I am afraid to fall

So instead I stay in the place

That I have been in for far too long

Trying to revel in perfection

Yet perfection does not reside here

I know this deep down inside

But I choose to not reveal

I can be wrong sometimes

Sometimes I make mistakes

Sometimes my calculations are wrong

Sometimes I forget to love instead of hate

Mistakes of my yesteryears

Still resonate within me

Yet I try to radiate perfection

So all can envy me

But what’s the point of being perfect

Because perfection has no flaws

And with no flaws there cannot be growth

So I will sit still for so long

But I wish to grow so gracefully

I wish to reach my peak

So I shall no longer be afraid of my future

And walk forward undoubtedly

I need to take a step forward

But decided to take a step back

For going forward had uncertainty

And I knew of all that was left back

But after I take two steps forward

Despite my one step back

For my mistakes my be beautiful

And show what I do lack

There is brilliance in uncertainty

There is gracefulness in rising up

There are lessons to be learned in mistakes

So……….

Live life fearlessly

Don’t worry about possible mistakes

Stop trying to be perfect

Fall in love with your beautiful mistakes

Love them

For they helped mold you

For they taught you

For they stick with you forever…

So what are you afraid of?

Why are we so deathly afraid to make mistakes?

The fear of his having a mishap keeps us from venturing on to new things in life?

But why?

I have been afraid

And lost countless opportunities because of this fear

However, when I finally took those opportunities

I learned the greatest lessons in my failures

I am not afraid to make a mistake…….. I know that there are great lessons learned in the faults of life………… -Monica Renata

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Thanks For Believing in Me

Thanks for Believing in Me

By: Monica Renata

The sun rose again

As it has rose so many times before

The birds started to chirp

Yet my eyes still wanted to close

A new day was beginning

Yet I wanted it just to end

Yet you dragged me out of bed that morning

And said there were events in life I must attend

Feeling utterly defeated

My head still looked at the floor

I did not rush to do things

Because what am I rushing for?

Clothed in my own pity

Surrounded by self-hate

And you patted me on my back

And said “It will be okay”

Going through my day

There are disappointments galore

I cry to myself

I wish this could be no more

Throughout this day

There was happiness and also pain

Put when I marched into my home

You grabbed me and said “Tomorrow is another day”

The moon begins to rise

As the sun fades to no more

I cry myself to sleep

And wonder what I am living for

And you tell me to cheer up

You say that it will be okay

And you leave me til tomorrow

Til I face another day

The days pass by so slowly

The seasons come and go

The cold chills me down to my tips

And freezes me to the soul

The heat of the sun then thaws me

And soon I realize I am growing so old

Yet one thing that remains

Is your undying faith which I still behold

The faith that my dark days will end

And I will blossom into who I was meant to be

The faith that one day my head will stand high

As high as the tallest tree

The faith that one day I will be in love

And finally be able to see

To see that I could be the person

Who I always wanted to be

The sun rose again

As it has rose many times before

The birds start to chirp

And my eyes no longer want to be closed

As the morning breeze brushes my face

I can hear those words in my heart say

“No matter how hard life is, you will be okay”

So on I continue to venture

For I know that I can conquer anything placed before my feet

And to you I give you all the glory

Thanks for believing in me

Monica Renata 

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To Decode A Riddle

To Decode A Riddle

By: Monica Renata

To ponder on a riddle

To decode the matter at hand

To get lost in all translation

To find words which were once marked in sand

To question your own sanity

To think that maybe those words don’t mean the same

To think there is a deeper meaning

To wonder what is going on in their head

Til the sun goes up

Til the sun goes down

Putting together the pieces of a puzzle

In which the last piece can’t be found

Words which were meant to have meaning

Are carefully hidden from you

Cloaked in a clever little riddle

That only baffles you

To ponder on a riddle

To decode the matter at hand

Putting together the pieces of a puzzle

In which the last piece has disappeared like words in sand

Let your thoughts relax

Don’t keep thinking about what was said

For the right person does not speak in riddles

They speak fluently instead

“Don’t keep thinking about what others said and try to decode it. The right person will not speak in riddles……….” – Monica Renata

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Beautiful Lies

Beautiful Lies

By: Monica Renata

To where I go

To what I must see

It can’t get any better than this

To be surrounded by majestic possessions

To be surrounded by splendor amiss

To wait there oh so silently

Waiting for my lover’s kiss

I fiddle my thumbs endlessly

While I relax in eternal bliss

Walls made from fabricated truths

Truths which you deny

But oh how beautiful the truth looks

When it is draped in a lie

Floors of solid marble

Crystal chandeliers by the door

Sparkling with such splendor

That my tears shall drop no more

For I shall revel in this beauty

This beauty that surrounds me

The beauty that you created when you lied

And made me see only what you wanted me to see

Made my world so pretty

Try to blind me

But your beauty may have distracted me then

But now… I can finally see

“Sometimes we are too afraid to confront individuals when we know they are lieing too us…but why? What is the point in believing a lie even though you may know the truth? The truth may hurt sometimes but it’s better than living in a fairy tale that doesn’t have a great ending” –Monica Renata

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Thanks for Being A Great Friend

Thanks for Being A Great Friend

By: Monica Renata

Too many times I befriended

Those who didn’t deserve

Didn’t deserve my loyalty

Didn’t deserve my kind words

I gave up hope and I thought to myself

True friendship could never be

So instead of focusing on other people

I decided to focus on me

And in that era of solidarity

I started to extend

Extend my presence in other networks

That I have never been

And upon my distant travels

Which brought me to a world I never knew

I met someone special

Who showed me I was special too

Constant talking on the phone

Growing along each other in life

Separated by many miles

Yet close within our eyes

Someone who cared about me

Our conversations flowed with ease

We talked about many silly things

Including strings of cheese

I never thought I would ever have

A friend such as this

I think about the time we first met

And I still reminisce

What a blessing you are to a life

That was once dark and so cold

What happiness you bring to my eyes

When we speak of things untold

Too many times I befriended

Those who didn’t deserve

But I thank God I got this one right

I have a friend who makes my lips curve

So thanks for being there for me

For I have really found a friend

Thanks for being my Top 8 buddy

We shall be friends til the end J

Monica Renata 

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Falling In Love with Potential

Falling in Love with Potential

By: Monica Renata

Potential

adjective

Having or showing the capacity to become or develop into something in the future

Noun

Latent qualities or abilities that may be developed and lead to future success or usefulness

Potential………I so many times fall in love with potential…. Not what something actually is, but what it could be. That unmasked greatness that just hasn’t rose from the dark valleys of the unknown yet. That spirit which is unmatched by many yet IT does not know…….That possibility of what I truly desire, but what was before me wasn’t quite it but it was close……..

I fell in love with potential. I overlooked the things that bothered me or the things that I didn’t like and I said that there was nowhere to go but UP from here. I decided not to accept someone for who they really were, but who they had the possibility to be…

The thin line that I decided to walk…….That balance beam that was over thousands of prickly needles……… With no other thoughts in my mind I decided to move forward and neglect what was in my face because I was blinded by potential and what someone else could possibly be……….How many times have you been blinded as well?

Too many times we overlook what is in front of us and look ahead to what we want to see. We see the flaws at hand, yet we tell ourselves that those flaws will heal with time and turn into something beautiful. In actuality, that may happen sometimes, but that is not always the case.

Potential………. I have always heard that I have potential. In all honesty, some only loved me because of that. As I think back on it now, I realize how inadequate I felt. I always felt like I never was good enough. I felt as though I was good, but I could be better if only I could reach my utmost potential. That type of thinking can turn a positive mind into a self-conscious mind. ..For a person to wake up every day and do their best yet their best isn’t good enough  for them because they have been told that the level at which they are at is not considered their utmost potential by others…That’s painful to wake up to each day. ….. And also, even though you may reach what others considered your “utmost potential” that may still never be good enough…….Trust  me, I know.

But alas, I didn’t learn. I too became one who loved potential yet didn’t acknowledge the reality that was in front of my own face. I pretended that everyone was but a game piece in my world. I held some to the side for use later because I just knew that if given more time they could turn out to be better than what I actually perceived them to be. I did not think of their feelings, I simply said “you are good but you are not good enough yet”…….and that is so wrong.

Potential………I so many times fall in love with potential…. Not what something actually is, but what it could be. I sell myself short, and also I sell others short by doing this. And I’m pretty sure you have done this as well.

Always love people for who they are, not who they might be. Sometimes we take for granted the person we have right in front of our face because we are waiting for that person who doesn’t exist to make their appearance. We all know we can become better people. We all know that if given the time and the resources we can better our future selves……We all know we have potential…..but we should never love that potential over what we currently see in the mirror each and every day.

Love people for who they are now. Love yourself for who you are now. Worry about the future, but don’t obsess over it. Love in the present, and stop holding out your love on something or someone that isn’t there just yet.

Potential ……..is a great thing……..but not something to fall in love with.

Have a great day,

Monica Renata 

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