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Thursday, March 27, 2014
Promises: Are they really made to be broken?
Hero's Curse
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
The Path to Victory
The Unnoticed Bloom
Fisherman's Treasure
Porcelain Doll
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Taste Your Words
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The Letter
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Time: How much do you really have?
Thursday, March 13, 2014
The Search For Happy
Journey to the Mountain
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Going it Alone
Sunday, March 9, 2014
The Wait
As my room slowly faded to black
Thoughts wandered through my mind
But in my spot I so sat
A place that is so old
Yet it always seems brand new
The place you told me to wait
If I wanted to ever see you
Surrounded by what I always knew
But yet also surrounded by the unknowns
Thoughts racing through my mind
I can't figure out which way I shall one day go
To leave this place would be a dream
But to leave would be a dream not so much
So instead I will just wait it out
Waiting for your touch
But I can't do this forever
One day I want to be free
I can't keep waiting for forever
So now may be my time to leave
As the sky went from midnight to blue
As my room slowly faded to blue from black
Thoughts wandered through my mind
But in my spot I so sat
Yet this time I wasn't as still
As I have been before
My feet finally started moving
And I'm making my way towards the door
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Insides
Seem to break with the wind
Limbs which were thought to be strong
Actually do bend
The outer appearance shows much
But it doesn't show all
To be strong on the outside
Doesn't reflect what's inside and that's the downfall
As strong as a great big wall
But hallow on the inside
Putting on a mask of a greater emotion
Than what is really felt inside
Standing like the great oak tree
So strong and beautiful indeed
But if only others knew
That my insides were so weak
"Hiding emotions really doesn't solve anything... It just makes you weaker. " -Monica Renata
Friday, February 28, 2014
The Bricks They Shall Throw
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
They Said I wouldn't Make It
Fly
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Winter to Spring
Soon to be no more
For Spring is finally coming
And life shall no longer be a bore
Birds will once again fly around
And the leaves will show once again on trees
For Spring is the loveliest of seasons
And since it is coming I am pleased
Friday, February 21, 2014
No Exceptions
For every single rule
And alas I fell for it completely
And I got lost in you
The things I said I wanted
Didn't matter if they weren't with you
I was lost in my own stupidity
I was acting like a fool
I said I would never make exceptions
But then I couldn't see
How I could make everything work
If I really wasn't happy
So I threw out the idea of what I wanted
And I said I would never look back
I said at least I'm happy
So what if they may lack
But as time goes on
There are some things that you will see
The other will constantly wonder
"Why are they talking to me?"
And they will confront you
With what you said you wanted before
And you won't be able to answer
Because in your heart you want them more
More than those petty things you wanted
More than what you ever said you need
But even if you voice this to them
You know they won't believe
So therefore make no exceptions
Stick to what you say you want
Because sometimes liking someone for themselves
Really isn't enough
People want to feel secure
They want to know that to others they can't compare
So next time just stick with what you want
Or what you get will vanish in thin air
Just Give It Your All.........Or Maybe Not
“If you really want something, you have to give it your all.”………….. I know everyone has heard this before. We are taught from our young years that if we want something bad enough all we have to do is put our all into and. And if we put our ALL into it, we will reach our goals………But is that true? Are you capable of achieving what your heart may so desire just by giving it YOUR ALL???
The answer is yes, and no…………You see, when we have a goal that is solely dependent on us, then of course if we give it our all we can accomplish it. For example, say I want to become a college graduate. That is indeed a possibility. I can do all the things required to reach that point. Sign up for fianancial aid, come up with ways to fund my schooling, study, devote my free time to indulging myself in my studies, put my ALL into it… you know stuff like that… and eventually I will obtain my goal.
The difficulties come in when your goal revolves around another person as well. For example, let me see……..let’s talk about the topic of relationships. You can want a relationship to last and prosper into something else (ya know, possibly marriage). So you do everything to try to make it work. You put aside your selfish pride. You devote a lot of your time into the other person. You make them feel special (or so you thought), you let them into your life fully, basically YOU GIVE THEM YOUR ALL………but then later on, it just doesn’t work. Hmmmm, I wonder why? Many times I see many people say, “I gave it my all so I don’t understand why it didn’t work” but the truth is, your all is only good enough when you are the only variable in the equation. When someone else is in the mix, your good enough could be cancelled out by their weakness and your best then becomes mediocre.
“I gave it my all”………. Athletes usually say this too. Sometimes you can give something your all, but then experience a loss. Like the other team just obliterated you; the score was 15 to 72 (a horrible loss). You feel like you gave it your all, and then you wonder was your all good enough? It probably was, however, it did not radiate to others because the rest of your team lacks skill..lol.
This happens. This is life. Is there a reason to cry over it? No, not really. But hey, sometimes a good cry could help you with the situation (tears are sometimes like therapy!!!). I guess what I am trying to say is…….”If you really want something, you have to give it your all”……….. and if it doesn’t work out SO WHAT!!! YOU TRIED!!! And you should be happy about that. Your personal best shouldn’t be defined by the best of others. Things happen and life goes on. And sometimes a few bad experiences help mold you into a phenomenal person. So reach for the stars and don’t let anyone tell you that your best isn’t good enough. Because eventually, everything you desire will be in your grasp, and one day those relationships will work out, and your team will win those games, and all that good stuff.
So smile, and keep on truckin!!! Because if you really want something……….. and you give it your all……You have a higher chance of obtaining it than if you didn’t try at all.
Have a great day,
Monica Renata
Don't get TOO Comfortable
Don’t ever get too comfortable
That’s what they always say
For obviously something is wrong with comfort
And it is something in which you shall run away
Don’t ever get too comfortable
They say with that look in their eyes
Yet usually when they say this
They are the one with the surprise
“Surprise! Guess what! I’m leaving!”
“You have to be ready for this now!”
“Because I said don’t get too comfortable”
“So on your face shall remain that smile”
“Surprise! Guess what! I planned this!”
“Quite some time ago”
“That’s why I always said”
“Don’t get too comfortable!”
Don’t ever get too comfortable
That’s what they always say
For obviously I shouldn’t be comfortable
Because it is them who shall run away
But alas I rather be comfortable
I rather be at ease with my day
For comfort is a form of relaxation
And I shall not stress today
Transform
Bye Bye to the old me
Adios to what came before
Now is the time to make the change
Now is the time to transform
Growth in all directions
Endless potential in sight
I can not remain complacent
For victory is right in my sight
Forward into the future
Not looking back at the past
I will be greater than before
To transform is now the task
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
It's hard for me to express my feelings
So instead I write them down
I write sad things when I am happy
I write happy things when I frown
It's like I have to be a puzzle
I can't let anyone see
See how I am truly feeling
So I write words so all can see
Because words are something different
They are actually quite unique
They can mean one thing to you...
While also meaning another to me
I could say the wind was blowing
And leaves hit the ground
And to me that represents the tears flowing
And the wind "whooshing" is my cry
I could say the flowers bloomed
And were beautiful for all to see
But actually this represents love
That has finally reached its peak
It's hard for me to express my feelings
So instead I write them down
But alas it solves nothing
And my world keeps tumbling down
I'm Beautiful
By: Monica Renata
I'm beautiful on the inside
Even though you cannot see
My heart is as pure as water
My emotions are true as they can be
I'm beautiful on the outside
Even though I may not get many stares
I have a presence that is undeniable
I sometimes express myself by what I wear
I am very beautiful
On the outside and underneath
I may not be your definition of beautiful
But I am beautiful to me
The Trap
By: Monica Renata
Clinging on the mountainside
I watch as you react
You have a look of shock on your face
You don’t know how to act
Your heart is beating fiercely
You tell me “hold on, don’t let go”
You want me in your life completely
You can’t image living your life alone
Clinging on the mountainside
I watch as you react
You reach your hand out to me
But I refuse like a brat
“Why are you doing this?!”
“Give me your hand so we can go!”
But I know that this is a trap
And I can’t do this anymore
I can’t let you rescue me this time
Because what I’m running from is you
I can’t keep going back to you
Even though you are the only one I knew
I can’t allow myself to be broken further
Because I know I will be broken again this time
I can’t keep chasing what makes me happy
If what makes me happy also makes me cry
Clinging on the mountainside
I watch as you react
You have a look of shock on your face
You don’t know how to act
I fell for this too many times
I can no longer fall for this trap
I have to let go of this all
I have to stop neglecting me
I have to find my true freedom
As I float upon the wind
Monday, February 17, 2014
Paper People
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Prettier Than Me
I can't describe what I see
My vision is so blurry
But I know that ahead is a picture of me
She is just so plain and simple
Not at all unique
No glamour of the movie stars
Not the pearliest of white teeth
Her clothes are somewhat tattered
Worn from years of use
She tries to smile
But suddenly she gets confused
What is there to smile about
There is nothing here to see
Some changes must be made
She has to be the woman you want her to be
So out she pulls her makeup bag
That allows her to doodle away
She starts to prepare everything
And brush makeup on her face
She highlights her eyes
The eyes that she thought you never knew
She paints her lips so carefully
Those lips which always yearned to kiss you
She works on her masterpiece
She even does her hair
She curls it like the girls you like
She wants you to stare
And soon when she is satisfied
She will finally smile
And put down all of her brushes
And begin to dress herself in a new style
All of this for you
Not an ounce of it for me
Yet when I finally reveal myself
It isn't I that you see
Her eyes are so much brighter
Her clothes are so brand new
Her waist is definitely smaller
Her smile is pearly white too
She has just everything
Everything I wanted to be
I wanted to make you happy
But she is prettier than me
Her looks catch your attention
While my looks are just a bore
You ask her out on dates
And it hurts me to the core
My feelings are so hurt
I can't paint on what I am not underneath
I can't even compete
I don't stand a chance
I get it
She's prettier than me