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Monday, April 29, 2013

Reality TV


I can see the camera
It is right there in my face
Paying attention to my every movement
Always recording what I say

I'm here for your entertainment
For you to love or for you to hate
I am a walking spectical
And you tune in every week

some say I am self absorbed 
Others say I am weak
But I just like to share my world
I want everyone to see

See how I live each day and night
See how my relationships unfold
See my attitude towards humanity
See how I am a staple in your household

You know my name
You know my face
My story and my family
And I make you believe  my reality means more
than other minor things

What's going on in the world around you? 
What's Korea's leader name? 
When was the last time a soldier died? 
When was the last time one was praised? 
What's going on in your community? 
What is your mayor's name? 

It's amazing how you don't know these things
Yet you know everything about me!

What's my date of birth? 
Who was the last person I tried to date? 
Why am I jealous of my cousin? 
Why did I slap her in her face?

You are addicted t my lifestyle
But yet you can't see...
I am a reality...but not your reality
I AM Reality TV 








Weekly Challenge 3: Appreciate What You Have

Hello,

I hope everyone's week is off to a fantastic start!! This week the weekly challenge is to appreciate what you have. At times we believe we don't have much. However, we actually have more than what you think. Think about the people in your life. Your mother, your father, your siblings, aunts and uncles, friends, and even people in your community. Have they impacted your life?

I remember a few teachers I had in grade school. They always encouraged me and believed in  me even when I didn't believe in myself. At that time, I never really thought that much about it. But now, I appreciate their kind words so much. Along with my family, they have helped propel me to the current position I am at in life.

I look at my sisters. I can honestly say I love spending time with them. I love having random conversations about nothing and just laughing for no particular reason. This is something so small....yet I appreciate it.

Take the time to think about all the blessings you have in your life. Some might not be that big but please just appreciate it. Even the smallest things in life can bring upon the brightest smile. Remember that!!! Because one day instead of appreciating what you have, you will find yourself appreciating what you have had!!



Friday, April 26, 2013

I am just like you



At the end of the day…
I am a person
Just like the others who roam around the world each day
I have feelings….. I have a heart…..
I am more than what others think I am
I am a person…
Just like you
Just like everyone else
 
I am someone who can let words consume my soul at times
I cry… I shed tears… I even bleed…. Just like you
I am a person

Countless times my emotions are neglected and it is believed that I feel nothing…
But I do
I feel everything….
Just like you feel…. I feel….
I can’t fathom why others disregard me as what I really am
It’s as though I have to be something different
Something unique
But I am not
I am just a person

Everyone has hard times
Everyone has bursts of happiness that erupt in their lives
Everyone has feelings
So who are we to think that someone doesn't??

Do you really think that there are emotionless shells walking around?
Sure people do evil things
Sure people do sweet things
Sure people act like they don't care
But these are all feelings....emotions.....
You know... they are what make others like you

I am just like you
You are just like me
Yet we say "differences" separate one from the other 
But I am a person.... just like you
We all come in different shapes, sizes, and shades
But .....

We all cry… We all shed tears… We all even bleed…. Just like you
I am a person
And so are you




As I walk in My Dreams



As I walk in my dreams
Dreams of which will never come true
Shadowing paths revealing themselves
But nothing guides me to the truth

As I walk in my dreams
And I see feelings of love
Overpowering my every movement
But that love isn’t for me

As I walk in my dreams
And realize I am so confused
I want to stay in my dreams
But that wish will never come true

I walk in my dreams
Because it is a happy place
But when I open my eyes all I see is heartache……



Love Run Free

Kiss me ever so softly
Play with my hair
Your presence means a lot to me
I need it like I need air

Hold my hand even tighter
Don't ever let me go
As our souls become intertwined
I can feel our love grow

Hold me closer to you
So tightly that I can barely breathe
Feel my heart beat faster
As you are standing next to me

Stay with me forever
You are all I need
I love you today and will love you tomorrow
Let our love run free


Brown, Blue, Green, and Hazel

Brown, Blue, Green, and Hazel
colors that come from an angel
revealing all there is inside
revealing love
revealing surprise

Brown, Blue, Green, and Hazel
They see the truth
They see forever
revealing hurt
revealing pain
These eyes
These eyes
Watching me as I lay

Brown, Blue, Green, and Hazel
Casting judgements
Believing they are able
Eyes open wide but they can't see
That those eyes are wide shut when watching me 

-Monica Renata


 

You can never judge a book by its cover. Sight is just one sense we possess. You cannot fully know someone by just looking at them...... We all know this.... but why do we judge others by what we see??

Everyone goes through different struggles in life. And who are we to judge them? Sometimes we look at the way a person dresses and believe that we know what they are about. And that is wrong! You can't truly know someone by just looking at them......Yet, many think that they can.... This is sad, but a part of life. I hope one day people will learn how to open their eyes which are wide shut. 

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Winter



I remember when the snow fell light
And it landed on the ground
This rarely happened in my neighborhood
So I was happy and I smiled

I remember when that snow turned to hail
And then feel upon my face
It wasn’t as soft as the snow was
But I was still happy it came

I remember when that hail turned to hail stones
And I finally had to run for cover
I watched in amazement while in my house
Because I had never seen this before

Soon the snow came harder
And the stones continued to fall
I watched myself get blocked in
And I no longer could do anything at all


I remember when he said he loved me
I was happy and I smiled
And I remember when he cheated
But he came back
And I was happy he came, so I smiled

But now it is just a storm
And I have tried to run but cannot hide
I can be honest with him and tell him how I feel
But it seems like he doesn’t get it inside

Why would someone want something
That they decided to throw away
Why would someone hold on to something
In hopes of having it one day
Why say you love someone
When you look in their face and constantly lie
And why shed a single tear
When I tell you I am tired of trying. 

I remembered when it snowed that day.
I remember how I felt.
I was in love and I was blinded by some petty things
I was blinded by how I felt
When it began to hail I still watched in amazement
Because I wanted to believe it couldn’t be that bad
And when the hail stones started to drop
I ran for cover but I still was there
I eventually became trapped, and I was alone
And I was hiding from the truth
And we all know the truth can open scary doors
It opened the door to the real you

As time went on my heart grew cold
And I could say this is because of you
But now I treat you,
How you always treated me
And now you tell me you feel used
And now you show emotion
But my heart is cold and your tears don’t faze me
For now I am frozen
And you are a distant memory
I run into you time from time
And you are but a stranger to me
You give me a hug
 you buy a gift
But it doesn’t mean anything to me
You call me and I pick up
And you just hear me breathe on the phone
You want me to show an ounce of feeling
But I packed those up long ago

But the moral of the story is
Don’t take advantage of a real love
Cause if a woman really loves you
She loves with her heart and soul
And yeah they say the first wound
Is always the one that cuts deep
But never throw away something
That you always thought you would keep
Because women get fed up at times
And yes, they do move on
But when a woman loses all emotion for you
You basically do not exist in her world
So treat your women right
And hold on to what you got
Cause a woman can only take so much
Until she decides to shut you completely out