My Night Under The Stars

Looking into the neverending night sky

I reminense and let life pass me by

For what awaits me after this day

I have no clue but I will keep my fears at bay

Lilacs and Roses

I will await the smell

The birds chirping cheerfully 

As they sit on the rails

From night to day

This is what I shall see

As I lay under the night sky

Waiting for morning to be

On the Road

It's been a long day
A very long day
You have so much more to do
And you want to do it fast

Time is so precious
Our time is the most precious of them all, right?

It's amazing how sometimes we get in our cars and head out to accomplish our tasks at hand, yet we forget about others. We are in a hurry, and we feel as though others should cater to us on the road.
We honk at the slow driver.
We duck in and out of traffic.
Just to make it to where we have to be
We don't want to waste our time....

But what about others.......
Staci is trying to pick up her child who missed the bus after school
David is trying to get to his wife who just went into labor
Anthony is trying to make it to his last college class ever
Everyone on the road has a mission
But why don't we see this?

Instead we put our own selfish needs ahead of others
We think our time is so valuable that we do careless things
We are reckless at the wheel and experience intense moments of rage
But why?
We are all trying to get somewhere
We all have things to do
We all want to live to see tomorrow........
So why possibly deny someone this?

The majority of accidents are caused by carelessness
Carelessness which occurs because someone didn't want to waste their time
They care about themselves
They honked at the slow driver
Then ducked in and out of traffic
Then purposely got in front of another vehicle to piss them off.....
Is it really worth it?
Is jeopardizing your life and the life of someone else really worth it?

You had a long day...
Someone else did too...
Your time is valuable
And others time is valuable too..
You want to make it home today
And so does everyone else
So please be a courteous driver
Don't just think about yourself

My Heart Beats

My heart
My heart beats for you
Poudning with roaring intensity
Almost to the point where I have to try to catch my breath
Because my heart
Is beating
For you

My lungs don't know what to do
I breathe in and out
Out and in
And still I can't
I can't catch my breathe

Overwhelmed by these emotions
I care but I say I don't
I want you to leave but also stay
I am lost
Lost in you

Circulating these different feelings that I have
Making my body move
Giving me life
I want you to go out there and be better than I ever was
I may not know you but I want you to know that I care
Even if you think no one else does
I want you to stay with me in my thoughts but move forward in this world
I want you to conquer your dreams
I want you to pursue happiness

For my heart
It beats for you
And I really wish you the best

The Secret

I have a little secret
That no one else shall know
It tickles my insides
And make me smile and glow

It's a secret that is so visible
Yet so many cannot see
It radiates with the brightest light
Like the light that peaks over the trees

My secret is so big
Yet it can also be considered small
For many may value it slightly
While others may not value it at all

I have a little secret
And it is that I love me
For the greatest gift I ever received
Was the gift of fully understanding me

I love myself
I love my life
I love the people too
And when my skies are constantly gray
I know that one day it will turn back blue

I have accepted myself for who I am
And I won't dwell on who I am not
And although this is unknown to others
To me it means a lot

I have a little secret
And I'm pretty sure that you do too
Because sometimes how we really feel
Is covered by what we do
We give the public what they want
We give them what they want to see
And sometimes the greatest costume we ever wear
Is the one that overshadows who we really should be

Speak Life Into Me

Speak

That is all I need you to do

I need you to speak

I need you to let me get wrapped in your words

Let your words comfort my spirit

Let me become entangled in the mixture of letters and pauses 

These letters and pauses which composes everything that you SPEAK of

Speak 

Speak life into me!!!

Comfort me 

Motivate me

Inspire me

Make me feel!

The power of words

Words can make you feel so many things

Feelings of happiness

Feelings of sadness 

Feelings of doubt

Oh so many feelings

Cover me with a blanket of your words

Kiss me softly with the kindest hello

And tuck me in with your bittersweet goodbyes

Speak

I want you to be inspired

I want you to believe in yourself

I want you to never be afraid to speak

For your words might give life to those who believe they are dead

Speak!

Because some of the best things are often left unsaid

Fish

Wondering around this mystic sea

Hopes and dreams surrounding me

I look up ahead and see a star

I follow it  but it doesn't take me far

I'm trapped underneath

Yet I can breathe

My hopes and dreams still surrounding me

But what I see I cannot get

But what can I do

For I am just a fish

Mornings Come

Mornings come

And Mornings Go

Sun Shines Bright

And then goes low

Day by Day that passes by

I appreciate life And never ask why

For today could really be my last

So I won't dwell too much on the past

I will appreciate the opportunity to live today

For who knows when it's my turn to eternally lay

They Said

They said I couldn't do it
I said I disagree
They said it wasn't worth it
But it means so much to me
They said there is no use in trying
I said I should try at the very least
They said chasing dreams is foolish
I said, "Well a fool I shall be"

So many people try to cut you down
So many people don't believe
That you are capable of many things
You are capable of being anything you wish to be
So many people 
So many opinions
But the only one that matters is yours
Go out and do what you want to do 
Set your goals and try to do so much more!

They said I couldn't do it
Well I'm doing it now
They said it wasn't worth it
But I have found fulfillment somehow
They said there was no use in trying
But I'm happy that I at least tried
They said chasing dreams was foolish
But I'm living my dream right now!

Don't get discouraged
By the negative things people say
Just use it as motivation 
To push through each day
Never shed a single tear over the doubts and thoughts of your friends 

For they will finally believe you
But it will take some time
They will believe in you when they see things happen
Then they will bat their eyes

When all your dreams are reality
When you accomplished what you seeked
When they realize that because they didn't believe in you
They pushed you to succeed

They said so many things
I remember this so well
But I now appreciate what they said
Because it has helped me to excel

The Remedy Is Me

Ten Fingers

Ten Toes

Two Eyes

One Nose

All a part of me

Help me navigate, smell, and see

One mouth 

To voice my opinions

And to finally express my self

One brain to give me the ability

To think critically and apply myself

One heart

To keep me moving

That's what composes me

But subtracting these things

Make me no longer be

One heart

Broken a thousand times

One brain to gather my thoughts

One mouth to express how I truly feel

But I won't say a word

One nose that sniffles so much

Two eyes that shed so many tears

Ten toes that want to walk away

Ten fingers that express how I feel

Typing, Typing, Typing away

Writing down my words

Trying to execute how I feel 

Make my silent words be heard

The best coping mechanism

The best medicine to seek

For my greatest disease is withholding my emotions

But the only remedy is me

Mirror Mirror

Mirror Mirror 

On the Wall

Who is the fairest of them all?

They say beauty is skin deep

But I can't see

How beauty so great is all you see...

Eyes dancing in the mirror 

Wandering around

Waiting for you to cast judgement 

Which will make me silently doubt...

Because if the fairest is all you see

I wonder if you will recognize me

Mirror Mirror

On the wall

Who is the fairest of them all? 

Just wait and please don't answer me yet!

I move back and make sure my feet are set

I clinch my fist and cock back then let go

The shards start to float around the room

I always thought the mirror was my friend

But now I realize it never saw what was within

The Awkward Butterfly

Hello Everyone, 

I would like to announce that I have recently published an eBook. This eBook is available on Amazon. If you click the following link you can be directed to the book: 

The Awkward Butterfly Available on Amazon

This weekend, the book will be available for free. That is Friday August 23rd through Sunday, August 25th. 

This book is in the kindle edition, however, you do not need a kindle to download the book. The app is available for androids, tablets, and many others. Below is the link to the kindle app download: 

Kindle App Download

I hope you enjoy the book. 


Thanks, 
Monica Renata

Statistics

They say we will not make it
They say the reasons why
They back it up with research
And we believe that they don't lie

But who are"they" to tell us this
Who conducted this research
Who placed all of this information
In so many distributed textbooks

We read and read and discover things
We discover we are part of their ongoing tests
And then we start to think to yourself
We think we fit their current mold
So our future is laid out as we speak

They say I will not make make
They say the reasons why
They back it up with research
And say that statistically I won't rise
But I refuse to be another number
I refuse to be what they think
I will not be a statistic
I won't be what they say

Just because I grew up this way
Doesn't mean I won't succeed
Just because my family has these problems
It doesn't mean they will happen to me
Just because I am from this area of the world
Doesn't mean I'm smarter or dumber than the rest
You can't just predict what I will do
I am not a number on your list


I refuse to be what you say
I refuse to submit
I am not a statistic
I will not be a number on your list

I will not be a statistic
I will not be a statistic
I WILL NOT be a statistic

They say I will not make it
They say the reasons why
They back it up with research
And say that statistically I won't rise
But I choose to disagree with them
I will not be a number on their list
I am more than what they believe I am
I am not just a statistic

Rain Rain

Rain Rain go away

Leave this place so I can play

Let those raindrops be no more

And stop pounding on my windows and doors

Stop blocking the future in front of me

It is pouring so hard 

I can barely see

Then I heard thunder in the background

And I know you won't let me leave this time

I see lightning in my  head

I try to back up but I can't

I want to cry

But this shower is overwhelming me

Just let me go

Just let me be free

Rain Rain go away

Leave this place so I can play

Let these tears be no more

For this fighting I can't take it no more

You throw dishes around our house

You tell me there is no way out

In the corner I crouch in fear

As your fists keep pounding against my skin

I don't know if I can survive

It was always bad...but it is worst this time

It feels like I'm about to be knocked out

Yet the rain of your fist just won't stop

I have to finally get the courage to leave

I have to go....

I have to be free

Weekly Challenge 10: Accomplish Something

Hello everyone!!!

I hope you are all having a great time. I will finally start up with my weekly challenges again. :) 

This week I would like you to take the time to accomplish something. Think about something that you want to do. How long have you wanted to accomplish it? Have you ever tried to make it happen? 

At times, we say that we want to do many things, however, we do not put in the effort to make it happen. I know I have been like this many times. I said I wanted something, and I wished and prayed about it, however, I did not put in any effort. I now know that I must put in effort if I want to accomplish anything........

And guess what!!!?? I finally accomplished it. :)

Never be afraid to go after what you want! 

And remember, 

Everything is impossible if you do not attempt to take the first step!!!!

-Monica Renata

Happiness is You

Crystal clear skies

No clouds to dampen my day

The sun shall radiate down

And a smile will be on my face

To know you is to love you

And love you is what I did

And forever the sun will always shine

Because I will always have you near

You Said You would start tomorrow

You said you would start tomorrow

But tomorrow has come and gone

Yet you sit in the exact same spot

You sat in once before

No progress made at all today

So you plan to make progress tomorrow

But what's the point of pushing it off?

What's the point in waiting til tomorrow? 

Day by Day by Day you plan

Plan to do something new

Yet you plan to do this tomorrow

But you never follow through

Oh wait until the years pass you by

Because by then you will finally see

That saying you will start tomorrow

Only hindered you indeed

All the things you could have accomplished

But you just kept putting off

You have lost your youth and soon

your clock will finally stop

Just Kinda

Kinda like a melody 

That plays over and over in my head

The sound of the sweet music

Could even reawaken the dead

It's kinda like the sugar

That is in your favorite fruit

It dances on your tongue awhile

Until you swallow that juice

It's kinda just like that

Well that's what my mother said

That feeling that just can't go away

The feeling that you will try to get

over and over again

A feeling you want some much

And quite frankly so do I

But what is this feeling exactly

It's just kinda how I feel inside

Eye for an Eye

An eye for an eye
A tooth for a tooth
Where does this leave us?
Does it bring us truth?

You punch me
Then I punch you
Does it solve anything?
Some people think that it do

But what is the purpose to act just the same?
Have hate in your heart
And then on others place the blame

They say do on to others as they do on to you
But were they speaking of violence
Or is this statement just not true

I slander your name
You slander mines
You break my heart
And you know my response
I will do everything that you do to me
It will not solve anything
But I will be happy.......

But why does the world seem to think like this?
Violence solves violence
This is what they honestly think
Whatever happened to turning the other cheek ?
Being the bigger person and keeping the peace
We seem to retaliate
When given no true purpose
Therefore we are no better than the so called monster

An eye for an eye
That's what they always say
But I don't understand how you can get rid of hate with hate
Maybe I am naive
Or maybe I just can't see
But my heart breaks daily
Because all I want to see is peace

Everyone Is A Winner

Everyone is a winner
Well, at least that is what they say
Seems like everyone deserves a trophy
Even if they do not play

We are afraid to tell others the truth
Because we fear we may hurt their feelings
So everyone thinks they are the best at all times
Everyone thinks they are winners

What have we taught our younger generation?
What are they striving for?
So many put down teachers when they say their child needs to try harder

Little Timmy on the baseball team
Jennifer who loves to dance
They can't receive any criticism
Or their parents will get mad

What has our world come to?
Seems like everyone needs a prize
No one can have their feelings hurt
No one can be criticized

Everyone has to be winners
But in order to win you must reach a goal
And so few are willing to do what it takes
Because they feel as though it is owed
This sense of entitlement weakens our future as we speak

At the end of the day
We all can't be winners
Because some of us will face defeat

An Untouched Memory

How nice is an untouched memory

That is just so pure

It glistens and shines greater than all

But is not accepted by most

How nice is an untouched memory

That has not been tainted at all

A memory that is waiting to be released

But only to one who deserves

How nice is an untouched memory

I really have no clue

Because even though I should be proud of it

It is what distances me from you.

You Light Up My Life

Just like a star

On the darkest night

You reach out your hand to me

And within my realm of darkness

You hear my heartfelt plea

I am consumed with fears

And one of these fears is being alone

So you wrap me in your warm embrace

To show that I always have a home

The light which shines within you

Is such a beautiful thing

Thanks for being my guide

Throughout my darkest of days

Forever Never Lasts

Fleeting joys of ecstasy
Time is moving too fast
We always think we have forever
But forever never lasts

Happiness is soon replaced
With broken little smiles
Then tears trickle down your cheeks
And you can't make a sound

Overwhelmed by this feeling
Yet still afraid to let go
You think that you will forget
And that feeling scares  you so

Appreciate what you have
Because today never stays the same
People may come and go
Even when your life still remains

In the end

In the end

It doesn’t matter

It doesn’t matter what you may think

Because I know who I am today

And who I want to be

No harsh words or discouraging faces

Will ever stop me

I will keep my head up high

And always have faith

Faith in myself and those who actually care

Like my family and a few friends

So talk all you want

Try to ruin my name

Because in the end you will truly see

While you were spreading rumors about me

I was succeeding my goals in life and being ME

I can't

I can't fault you for being yourself
I can only say I understand
I can't make you understand me
If you don't try to take a chance
I can't ask you to change your ways
Because you will only change if you want to
I can't expect  you to take the time to do what you don't want to do

Finger Pointers

Point your finger once again
Point out the things that others lack
Judge so harshly
Let them see
That they are not what you want them to be

Judgment has been cast upon others again
Yet we do not worry until we are the ones at stake
Always pointing a finger
Playing the blame game
But what is the purpose
All these games are the same

He said this
She said that
He did this
She did that

All and all
It is all the same
Always pointing the finger
Always handing out blame

He can't do that
She can't do this
He believes in this
She believes in that

I thought differences is what made us unique
We teach children to be themselves
But we are afraid of the product we reap

He married her
She married him
It is all good, but then
He marries him
And she marries her
And now the world seems to be in a downfall

But who are we to judge anyone
At the end of the day, let people do what they love
And stop judging others because they do something you believe is so wrong
There are too many bad things happening in this world today
To try to take away someone's happiness piece by piece
Stop blaming others for what goes wrong
Stop thinking that your right is ALWAYS right
And there right is wrong
Do what makes you happy
And they should too
Cause you would feel really bad
If those fingers were pointing at you

Point your finger once again
Point out the things that others lack
Judge so harshly
Let them see
That they are not what you want them to be
Then open your eyes and look into that mirror so true
Cause usually nothing is wrong with the object being judged
Something is wrong with you

Have you ever had a Shadow?

Have you ever had a shadow

Who would try to imitate what you do

When you speak they speak as well

And they think their words are of truth?

Have you ever had a shadow

That tries to make you feel worst about yourself each day

Who constantly looks you in your face

And makes you realize you two aren't the same?

Have you ever had a shadow

Who is so mean yet you’re a so nice

The look on their face tells it all

They want you out of sight

Have you ever had a shadow

And you hated it so true

But the only thing stopping you from truly hating them

Is because they are a part of you

Our shadow is a reflection of ourselves

Yet we judge it so unkindly

Why are we so hard on ourselves?

Why do we give up before we try?

Have you ever had a shadow

Who wanted to reach the stars just like you

You think you can't do it

But to your shadow, that is untrue

What is the point

What is the point of even trying?
I find myself questioning this each day
Yet, I decide to be the bigger person
And be cordial at the end of the day
But what is this all doing for me?
Because I am not gaining at all
Yet I am constantly dragging myself deeper into a hole
That I want no part of

What is the point of even speaking?
If you don't listen to a word I say
If you say my thoughts are meaningless
Then yell at me when I have nothing to say
I am slowly starting to realize
That you don't care at all
And maybe this is just something
That I should have no part in at all...

What is the point
There is no purpose.
What is the point.......

Weekly Challenge 9: Take time to Notice

Today...
Take the time to notice the kind people you encounter.
Simple as that!!!!

The journey of the Heart

The heart has a way of finding itself
No matter the trials it goes through
At one point it can be bursting with life
And at another point it is broken in two

The journey of a heart is a sad one indeed
For it always has the possibility to get hurt
But usually the journey of a heart goes very far
Til it meets another heart and those two become one

And then that journey seems like it was worth it
It seems like those tears meant something indeed
For the rough road the heart took sometimes countless times
It ended in the greatest place it could be

To be loved is such a wonderful thing
That so many take for granted these days
Nothing ever comes easy in life
And love is one of those things

And sometimes when you waited for something
For as long as you can think
When you finally get what you are looking for
You will appreciate it above all things

Love vs Hate

From love comes all life they say
But I shall disagree
For many times I have seen love uproot a tree
And the hate for those who love so much
Grows stronger indeed
And that hate soon encourages others to finally plant a seed
And from this seed sprouts a life
Which is a blessing we all see
And the battle of love and hate continues on and battles for the fate of the seed

Horrific Travels

Hold my hand
My dear friend
Come with me
And let's pretend
Pretend we are worlds apart
Yet still intertwined in each others hearts

Feel my heart
Beat after beat
Your smile
Is one of my greatest treats
Now continue to hold my hand some more
And drift off in this other land we both adore

Worlds of marvel
Streets of gold
A place in which we will never grow old
This new world is small
But it is all we need
A world just built for you and me
Feast of wonder
The city of sin
You will be the greatest of all your friends
You will have to want no more
Cause everything is given, and you don't have to work for it

Everything you ever dreamed
I have for you
This is real, or so it seems

So now you can let go of my hand
And experience all the wonders of hell
You got everything you ever dreamed
Each deadly sin you committed indeed
No longer do you need my guide
Because you are here
It's your turn to cry

Are you scared now?
I bet you are
You are wondering around dazed
Looking at the stars
And who am I?
You could care the least
But why is it my company you wish to keep?

Greed & Gluttony
You want more and more
You over indulge in the things you adore

Anger & Envy
To say the least
You always have a problem when others accomplish great feats

Lust
You always hunger for the flesh
Don't care about what is on the inside
It is only the physical that impress

Pride
To afraid to admit your faults

Sloth
And out of all these other things
You think you will success will just come
You are lazy but expect the most

The way you got here
Is by all your doings
I didn't have to lead you
Because it was the things you were pursuing
Which made you follow this awful path
But I'm not complaining because you are mine at last

Another man to add to my den
No concern about others
And submerged in sin

Tomorrow

Beating heart
The pounding drum
Keeps me going
In the blazing sun

Overturn the shades of day
Keep on going
Trying to run away

Ice cold sweat
Trickling down
Yet I cannot quite hear the sounds
Running, Running, Running away
Trying to get to Tomorrow
So today can be Yesterday

Oh what promise Tomorrow holds
I must get there quickly before I turn old
Always running away from Today
Believing that what is ahead
Is so great

Yet  never taking the time to appreciate this day
Cause I am running, running, running away

Weekly Challenge 8: Know Your Worth

How many people allow others to treat them any type of way at times??

I know that sometimes I allow this and it is very wrong. This weekly challenge will be short and brief, but basically I want you to know your worth!!

No one deserves to be mistreated by others.

No one deserves to be disrespected. 

No one deserves to be taken advantage of. 

No one deserves to be treated as though they are less than someone else. 

If someone treats you in such away just extract them from  your life. 

Life is too short to drench yourself in a pool of negativity. 

And at times we say that the people who do these things are our "friends" and they didn't mean it....but friends wouldn't treat you bad. Know your worth and stop selling yourself short!!!!

Have a nice day!!!

A New Beginning

Peaking over the mountain top
Gazing on the sea
Bringing warmth to all you touch
Making ice caps no longer freeze

Playing on the petals of flowers
Lighting up so many homes
Reminds me of a beacon of light
I seen so long ago

Slowly taking away the darkness
Imitating the heavens as I speak
A new day is beginning
As the sun rises to its peak

River of Tears

The weight of the world is heavy
So heavy that it crushes the soul
And soon the clouds that play in the sky
Begin to cry once more

Some benefit from this happening
While others face defeat
And the the river begins to be filled with tears
Tears that it is afraid to release

As the water continues to plummet down
The river can take no more
It soon releases those tears
It can't hold them in anymore

Poor river flowing with constant tears
Tears it wishes were no more
But the weight of the world is heavy indeed
So heavy it crushes the soul

Tick Tock

Tick Tock goes the clock

Tick and then the world is still

And I am lost in my thoughts

Trying to swallow this pill

As time has given me time to catch up

I quickly move away

I can't fathom why I have been blessed with this opportunity

And I wonder when it will go away

The world it seems so frozen

Everyone looks like porcelain dolls

Yet I slowly torment myself

With thoughts of being alone

So many smiles I will not see

So many years will be missed

I won't even get the opportunity 

To feel my very first kiss

Tock goes the clock

And then the tick tocks resume

I can't imagine how life would be

If time would stand still for you

Weekly Challenge 7: Find out what Inspires you

This week, I would like everyone to think about what inspires them in life.
I know that I have been inspired by my family and even friends at times. But most importantly, I love reading quotes!!! Sometimes these quotes can help me get through the toughest times. I also remember a specific song that helped me make it through a hard time in my life. I will post it for you. Have a great week!!! :)

“Just know, when you truly want success, you’ll never give up on it. No matter how bad the situation may get.” - Unknown

“Accept responsibility for your life. Know that it is you who will get you where you want to go, no one else.” – Les Brown

“One of the most important keys to Success is having the discipline to do what you know you should do, even when you dont feel like doing it.” - Unknown

“Good things come to those who wait… greater things come to those who get off their ass and do anything to make it happen.” - Unknown

“Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, or worn. It is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace & gratitude.” - Denis Waitley

“In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure.” – Bill Cosby

Standards

I tell myself you don't qualify

Because you don't have everything on my list

I say that you are kind

But you don't have that or this

I tell you that you're a great person

That is something we can't deny

I say that I have standards

And that is why you can't be my man

Standards

 we all have them

But some are a little too high

We walk pass the nicest people

And say they don't qualify

We have in our head this imaginary list

And point out what others lack

Yet if someone did the same to us

We would want to break their neck

Nice body 

CHECK

Nice personality 

CHECK

And a nice bright smile.....

Those are things I love the most

They are things that make me smile

Respectful 

CHECK

Goal oriented

CHECK

Compatible with me

I notice that we get along

And I have to speak with you before I go to sleep

As the list goes on 

I notice that the check marks disappear

You are missing what I say I want

Yet I still hold you in my heart dear

So should I follow my standards

And get someone who meets my list so true

Or should I be happy

With someone like you

Standards 

Standards 

Standards

You don't qualify

But how could you ever cross the fence

If my standards are too high

If I had a million wishes

If I had a million wishes
And all of them would come true
I would take all of my wishes
And wish for things for you

If I had a million wishes
And I could hold your hand
I would wish you could feel my love
And know that it is really there

Because I have a Sister

Because I have a sister
I shall always have a friend
And I didn't realize this
And I wish I would have known then

That no matter what, I have my sister
Through the constant smiles and frowns
She is my motivation
When life has me feeling down

Because I have a sister
I can't possibly be alone
Because even though we live in different places
I know her house is also my home

In her heart I will always be
In my heart she will be too
I love my sister
And I know she loves me too

No matter what ever happens
She will be there through thick and thin
And because I have a sister
I shall always have a friend

The truth about my Love Poem

Blue as the sky 

On this lovely day

I think about you

As I lay...

And what type of things come to my mind

A whirlwind of emotion is tumbling down

And then I finally catch my breath

And I tell myself "You have to relax"

I paint a portrait only I can see

And it showcases so many memories

The happiness I felt

The disappoints too

Oh how all this revolves around you

Blue as the sky 

On this lovely day

I think about you 

As I lay

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The Love Poem........... To be completely honest, I think that I am fairly decent at writing them. However, truth be told, I am horrible at love. I am the type of person who consumes her world with so many other things that I neglect that aspect of my life. I am the type of person who is somewhat of a perfectionist. I always have to be the best at whatever I do. And I applied that to my academic career and now I apply that to my current job......but this thing called love.... I put in no effort.............. 

Sorry for the random thought after writing..lol

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The Kindest Heart

The kindest heart you have ever encountered
Has been beating way too fast
It is scared of all the hurt around
And wonders when this pain will pass

The kindest heart you have ever encountered
Has always been there for you
Yet you constantly neglect its feelings
Because they have nothing to do with you

The kindest heart you have ever encountered
Has tears swelling in their eyes
But they will try to remain strong
Because they don't want you to see them cry

It is always the ones that care the most
That seem to always get hurt
It is the ones who are always there for you
That you end up treating like dirt
But why should these people constantly feel alone
When the ones who have the kindest hearts
Try to help everyone they know

The kindest heart you have ever encountered
May be your only true friend
But soon they will begin to wonder when their sadness will end
And the kindest heart will sometimes think and they will soon believe....
"That sometimes no matter how good you are to people... they will never be good to you"

Sweet Love

Sweeter than a honeydew
Oh how I dream of you
Gently caress me and hold me tight
Never let go with all your might

Kiss me as I pull away
Make  me realize I want to stay
Oh how I am in love with you
I can picture it all
Just me and you...

You hand me the world on a silver plate
You offer more
But I won't take
You care about me
More than I care about myself
You give me so much love
Until you have none left

Forever you will be by my side
The love you have for me I can't deny
Sweeter than a honeydew
Oh how my dreams have really come true

The Windy Night

As the wind blows so peacefully
And the sun begins to set
I sit down and reminisce about my day
And enjoy what I have left

As the sunlight slowly goes away
I take a deep breath in
Enjoying the smell of the flowers
That are carried by the wind

I hear brief sounds of nature
I hear crickets in the grass
And I close my eyes and remember
Remember the events of my past

As the wind gently plays with my cheeks
I feel so at home
And soon I notice
That the sun is no more

Crickets in the grass
The smell of roses in the wind
A day gone by so swiftly
A day I can't get back
But who am I to worry
For I enjoyed this day
As I sat down and remembered
As the wind blew past my face

Fear

Creeping through the darkest night
Close to me
Yet far in sight
Feeding on my beating heart
Making my world... fall apart
Through the night as I sleep
My company you want to keep
But I am just so very afraid
Yet I can't close my eyes again

Wanting to leave
And afraid to stay
I close my eyes yet once again
Hoping I could just leave this dream
Fearing this dream could be reality indeed

Creeping through the darkest night
Close to me
yet far in sight
Feeding on my beating heart
Making my world fall apart
I want to leave
And I'm afraid to stay
Yet this fear inside won't go away
Save me from this horrible thing
This nightmare that others would call a dream

Weekly Challenge 6: Share a childhood memory

When I was a little girl, I remember one of my favorite things to do was watch cartoons. My mother would always buy these VHS tapes which had 6 hours of cartoons on them. I would sit in front of the tv all day watching classics such as Felix the Cat, Woody the Woodpecker, Popeye, and many others. I also remember watching Little Lulu and Little Audrey. They were my favorites!!!! This week I will leave you with a piece of my childhood I loved so much. I hope you enjoy.