Every Ounce of Me

Every Ounce of Me

By: Monica Renata

As the water flows indefinitely

As it finally reached the brim

My love still overflows

With every ounce of me still

As the sun begins to go up

As the moon begins to rise

You are the first and last I think of

When I open and close my eyes

Endless fields of flowers

Each and every day

My world is so much livelier

You always brighten my day

Through the endless tears that flow

Though they be happy or they be sad

My love for you shall always consume me

I shall love you with every ounce of me still

No miles which are placed between us

No other person can make me hide

The feelings that I have

The feelings that won’t shrivel up and die

Through the storms we been through together

Through the memories that we have made

I won’t forget the blessing I received

When I met you that one day

As the water flows indefinitely

As it finally reached the brim

My love still overflows

With every ounce of me still

As the sun begins to go up

As the moon begins to rise

You are the first and last I think of

When I open and close my eyes

Endless fields of flowers

Each and every day

My world is so much livelier

I love you….
with every ounce of me

Monica Renata 
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I Can't Make You

I Can’t Make You

By: Monica Renata

I am great in my own right

Yet not everyone can see

But my words mean nothing to others

Who won’t let me be me

But the wait for me to express myself

Is like a predetermined defeat

My thoughts you want me to voice

But my words aren’t the words you want them to be

To say that I am fine

That is just a big fat lie

But the words that are true to my heart

Those are the words you will deny

To say I should express myself

To say I should be me

Yet you won’t listen to a word I say

Yet you say “Your words may influence me”…

But alas I know the reality

And it isn’t that hard to predict

I can’t change someone’s way of thinking

Especially when it is my words they choose to omit

So in my months of trying

I have to just let go

Let go of my foolish attempts

And realize what I should already know

I can’t make you do anything

That you don’t wish to do

So instead I shall sit there quietly

Waiting for a breakthrough

I can’t make you listen to me

Even though it matters much

So instead I shall keep my thoughts contained

While you reach out for my touch

I can’t make you understand how I feel

Because that isn’t what you want to do

But I can’t keep going through the same thing

I can’t take this torture I have been through……….

I am great in my own right

Yet not everyone can see

But my words mean nothing to others

Who won’t let me be me

But the wait for me to express myself

Is like a predetermined defeat

My thoughts you want me to voice

But my words aren’t the words you want them to be

So instead I shall just sit quietly

And not whisper a peep

I always knew some people wouldn’t accept me

But I never thought it would be you who wouldn’t let me be me

“Sometimes the ones we care about the most are the ones who really don’t care about how we feel. At times, some people become selfish and only acknowledge their feelings while neglecting yours….. Don’t let situations such as these bother you. Surround yourself with those who appreciate you for who you are and accept you completely” – Monica Renata

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Words Vs Actions

Words or Actions? Which are more important…..

A word………. A single distinct meaningful element of speech or writing, used with others (or sometimes alone) to form a sentence and typically shown with a space on either side when written or printed….

An action……….. An action is the fact or process of doing something, typically to achieve an aim. A thing done; an act.

Words are a beautiful collection of letters which join together to form thoughts, feelings, statements, emotions……………………and all sorts of other things. But without the reciprocated actions, do they mean anything?

What is the purpose of someone saying they Will always be there for you, when in actuality the few times they are needed they are not there or “too busy”?

What is the purpose of someone saying I care about you so much, when in actuality they can go a whole week without checking on you just to see if you are okay?

What is the purpose of someone saying You mean a lot to me, when in actuality they could care less how you are doing?

People say so many things…………but should there words be taken as truth? ……….

Sometimes someone can break down in tears and tell you something, they can express how they feel and show a bit of anger at the fact that you don’t believe them….but what are words if they are not backed by actions?

I rather someone show me how they feel than to just say it………Because at the end of the day…….. Talk is very cheap. Whenever you just rely on what someone says you are only taking in half of the situation. It’s amazing how someone can say they appreciate you….yet you are the very Very VERY last thing on their mind. ..Sad but true. ……

 I guess what I am trying to say is When someone SHOWS you their feelings believe that more than you believe their words. Actions speak louder than words and Actions can reveal the truth that was cloaked in a beautiful melody of words for quite some time. Don’t constantly hold on to what someone else has said, yet they constantly disprove…………Don’t even put yourself through the heartbreak. If you notice something doesn’t match up, address it then and if it doesn’t get better then just forget about it. Don’t let negativity consume your life. Some battles just aren’t worth fighting……..

Have a great day,

Monica Renata 
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You Can't Let the Same Thing Keep Hurting You Over and Over Again.....

“You can’t let the same thing keep hurting you over and over again….”

Life is……..

Beautiful

Fun

Crazy

Life is so many things……..and well, life can be complicated at times.  Each day we wake up and take on a new day but some of us wake up with the thoughts of past actions or mistakes glooming over us. We think about this over and over and our new day becomes shrouded by the past which makes our ever approaching future seem a little dim. But why do we do this? Why do we let the past cloud our sunny outlook each new day? Why do you let the same thing that was bothering you yesterday bother you today?

Things happen….

People hurt your feelings……..

You mess up sometimes………

Others take you for granted……….

But at the end of the day, you control what is important to you. I believe that so many people find it so hard to shrug off certain things. We let emotions build up…. We cry for the same reason we cried yesterday…….But why?

You can’t let the same thing keep hurting you over and over again……….

If you don’t like something about yourself, Change it!

If you don’t like how someone is treating you, Leave Them Alone!

If you keep making the same mistake over and over, STOP doing it and Make A Change Today!!

You can’t let the same thing keep hurting you over and over again……….You just can’t let it……….. By doing so, you don’t even give your future a chance to shine brightly. You diminish the quality of your life because you are burdened by the things that you can’t seem to get over………… There is nothing worse than waking up a few months from now and realize that you wasted time stressing about something or someone who doesn’t matter…………..There is nothing worse than realizing that you made your life a living hell just because you couldn’t get over something…………There is nothing worse than realizing that you wasted part of your life on something that you could have changed in a matter of seconds………..

Life is……..

Beautiful

Fun

Crazy

Life is so many things……..and well, life can be complicated at times………But sometimes we forget that life is short……..Life is too short to be anything but happy. Embrace the positive people around you, and discard the negative ones from your life. Forget about your past mistakes, and begin to find ways to overcome those hurdles. Live each day as a new day that hasn’t been tarnished by the past of yesterday. You owe it to yourself. You deserve to be happy. Stop letting the same things keep you from enjoying your life! You don’t want to wake up one day and realize how much time you actually wasted on something that is so meaningless today.

Have a great day,

Monica Renata 
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SandMan

SandMan

By: Monica Renata

Beautifully created

Carved from the sand with blood, tears, and sweat

Takes a while to finish creating

Takes so much to stay intact

Molded by not only the hands of one

But by the hands of many

Each day helps create the masterpiece

Its work status is unending

Yet beautiful indeed

The core includes the heart

That stays true to what it knows and loves

That beats despite all of its past hurt

Molded into perfection

Perfection that not many will see

But despite all that you encounter

Please don’t change who you are or who you want to be

Don’t let others change who you are

Don’t let situations take away your hope

Don’t allow ungrateful people to rob all of the giving in your heart

Don’t let words get you down

Don’t stray from the path of who you want to be

Don’t let someone tell you that you are not good enough when you are being all you can be

Blood, tears, and sweats

Carved a beautiful masterpiece

Disappointments helped mold you

And so did past defeats

Rise up and realize your value

You are worth more than you may think

For those made of sand who remain intact

Are indeed a masterpiece

“We mold ourselves by our personal experience and what goes on around us. Do not allow others to break you. Remain true to the person you really are……. “ –Monica Renata

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Patience is a Virtue

Patience is a Virtue

By: Monica Renata

Patience is a virtue

That so many seem to lack

But what’s the point of always waiting

When it is consistency someone lacks?

Patiently waiting for things to change

But will that ever be?

Patiently waiting for someone to see their flaws

But will they ever see?

To wait around forever

To experience the same result

Waiting patiently for a change

But change shall never come

Wait no longer my dear friend

Patience isn’t as all good as it seems

For if you want things to change

You have to be the change you wish to see

Stop letting time just pass you by

Stop being so darn patient

For those who wait never receive handouts

Because victory is given to those who take it

Monica Renata 
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Summer Days

Summer Days

By: Monica Renata

The brilliance of the summer sun

That quickly goes away

After showcasing all of its wonder

On a beautiful summer day

Night skies take over as the sun does set

No more are the sounds of birds and bees

Crickets chirp so very loudly

Interrupting so many who try to sleep

Sweet smells of muggy gloom

Flower petals lost in the wind

Summer days come upon us quick

And just as quick they come to an end

Monica Renata 
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Moon Love: Stop overvaluing fainting stars

“Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars” –Unknown

How many times have you heard this before? Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you…….Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars……..So many of us take this quote as a lesson that we should appreciate the people in our lives. We give others Moon status and we revolve our lives around them so that we can never lose them……We disregard the fainting stars we come in contact with because we give the moon so much precedence above all…….

I found my moon once….I thought that it was everything that I have ever dreamed. It was almost perfect… So frickin perfect!!!.........I loved the moon and it was my light in the darkest of days. I never wanted to lose it…..But one day, the moon didn’t shine so brightly anymore. In fact, it abandoned me at times, but I kept holding on. I just couldn’t lose my moon. Instead of rising every night, my moon disappeared some days which left my world in complete darkness.

I cried out…….yet my tears were in vain.

I tried to speak when the moon was present, but each time this occurred the moon would perform a vanishing act.

I valued my moon so much………..but it seems as though it didn’t value me………

When you neglect the stars in the night sky you no longer have light if the moon is gone…….  I gave up all the glistening studs I had in order to obtain the moon, yet it left me in complete darkness. Lost, confused, and so unsure of myself I questioned the creator of all……..In my realm of silence I thought I found nothing……however, I was finally calmed by my thoughts……….What if that light that brightened my night was not the moon after all? What if it was just a fainting star…….

In each person’s life, they will encounter there moon and their stars. Stars are merely those who have an impact on your life whether positive or negative. They are very much needed for your personal development. The moon tends to the individual or individuals(s) who have a dramatic effect on your life for long periods of time. Your moon may be your mother, your spouse, or a family member…….Your stars may include friends, family, and sometimes even your current spouse (if it wasn’t meant to last). At the end of the day, to make your night sky beautifully, you must have both. Your stars and your moon are necessary…………You just have to learn how to differentiate between the two………

Just because something shines so profusely does not mean that it is of greater value than a star. Sometimes things have  a way of looking more expensive than they actually are………Sometimes we place a high value on the wrong people and we lose ourselves completely because we gave everything else up……… Sad, but so very true. We label people as stars and say they aren’t important, when in actuality they may have been our moon….

I guess what I am trying to say is be careful of the individuals you value. As humans, at times we value the wrong ones and believe that they are so beneficial to us when they are actually just bringing us down……… Don’t overvalue some fainting star and miss out on your true moon!! Life is too short……Yet a night in complete darkness can seem like forever……..

Moon Love

By: Monica Renata

Amidst the world that’s warm yet cold

As I sit underneath the tree

Your eyes gaze upon my body

Yet my eyes won’t let me get sleep

Infatuated by your beauty

I no longer focus on the stars

For you are who I want forever

I wish to lie forever in your arms

Amidst the world that’s warm yet cold

As I sit underneath the tree

Your love is really all I need

Your love has set me free

Monica Renata 
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