Changing Others

You can't change other people
You can't make someone see what you see
And too many times we put in time and effort to try to accomplish those things

But people are people
They are entitled to feel how they feel
And their emotions may be dependent on your actions
But you can't control how they feel

You can't change someone
You can't make them see things your way
They have to want to change themselves
And observe others perspectives about things

So stop trying to make this happen
Stop trying to force others to believe
Because they will listen when they want to listen
And speak when they want to speak
You say a thousand words and they only heard 3
You can't change what doesn't want to be changed
You can only just wait and see

Sometimes change takes a while in a person
And they need to realize that change starts with M-E
And even with change within yourself
You must realize that it always starts with YOU

It's that simple....

The Ship

Beautifully made

And wonderfully created

The greatest ship sailing the seas

Across many different waters

This ship shall continue to sail

Even though its unknown of the path it continues to seek

It sails through the moon and the sunlight

It also sails through the rain

Always staying strong and firm

So beautifully and wonderfully made

There is always a fear that it will sink

But this fear holds the ship back none

For life is full of chances 

Positive and negative ones

And the only time the negative things affect you

Is when you give them a chance

For if you don't let negativity in

You will continue to sail

See people are a lot like ships

They change direction sometimes with the wind

But usually when they are in a determined path

They do whatever it takes

Whatever it takes to let them get there

Whatever it takes to make sure everyone is safe

Sailing smoothly through life

And encountering thunderstorms along the way

But all in all they survive it all

Because of their will to live

However sometimes people let negative thoughts conjure within their head

And these negative thoughts become a part of you

And they open you up to the world

And then you let the words of others flow through you like water from that sea would

And then you become heavy

So heavy you begin to sink

And at that moment you are panicking

But you try to fix the leak

For people are just like ships you know

Beautifully and wonderfully made

They are constantly something negative around

Like the water to the ship in the sea

But an entire body of water can't sink a ship

unless water gets inside

And when that water slowly creeps in 

you can usually find a fix in time

But if you don't fix it soon

And let the negatives fester and swell

The water will continue to gather

And your ship will soon sink instead of sail

But at the end of the day I just want you to know

That no matter what you go through

Negativity in this world can only bring you down 

If you allow it inside of you

Sure it can  surround you at times

But you can and must prevail

Be the ship that sails the seas through the sunny days and the storms

And don't let the negatives in life bother you

Don't let the wind constantly sway you too

For you are the ship  that is sailing through life

so to your path, always stay true

And don't dwell on all the negatives constantly coming your way

Just continue on with your life

For you shall sail another day

What wakes you up in the morning?

You awaken from your slumber
And yet again you have been blessed with another day to live
So, the question is...
What do you do?
What will you accomplish today?
Something is waking you up every morning, but what is it?

At times, we never really ask ourselves these questions
We feel like time is fleeting away so fast that we rush to take on the day
Yet we don't take the time to appreciate it for what it is
We don't take the time to say thank you for what we have
We don't take the time to say I love you to the many people we may love...
So give it some thought now

What makes you wake up in the morning?
What makes you push through each and every day?
There is something.........
Someone..............
I don't know what or who it is...but you do
And to be honest, what you wake up for each day probably makes you so happy
But you don't really know it...
Because you never really took the time to think about it
Because you were too busy trying to make perfect use of every second within your day

So take the time today to be thankful for what you have
Be thankful for the people in your life
Be happy with your current situation because there are people worst off than you
Be happy that you were blessed with another day!
Pick up the phone and tell someone how much you care about them
Express to them your true feelings without being ashamed
After all.....
Sometimes the very things that wake you up
Can also leave in an instant
So appreciate it while it is here

Never change for others, Only change for YOURSELF.

That Moment

That moment

That one moment 

That moment that you can't get out of  your head

That moment that plays over and over and over

That moment you wish you could forget but yet always remember

You know....that moment

We all had that moment

That moment that we relive in our heads over and over again

We analyze it completely

And then we question ourselves

"What if I did this?"

"What if I did that?"

"Was it even worth it?"

"Could I fix it?"

"Is it worth fixing?"

Yeah... that moment

That moment can consume our lives at time

But what should you do? 

Just forget it? 

Forget it ever happened? 

I mean.. maybe it isn't as such of a big deal as you currently think

After all, you might not even care

But yet....

You are thinking about it

You constantly wonder about it

.....But you still wonder if you care

Should you care?

You don't know...

I don't know either...

So yet that moment lives on

In your head

consuming your thoughts

Slowing killing a little piece of you

You develop doubts

You feel as though you are the problem

And then you place yourself in a state of isolationism

Cause that moment...

That one moment.....

Consumes you....

Confuses you....

And makes you question yourself....

Forever you cannot move forward

Frozen 

Confused

Hurt

You remain..

For you are stuck in that moment

But you need to move on

Perfection

Perfect
I just want things to be perfect
I want my dreams to be the blueprint to my reality
I want everything to fit just like the 1000th piece fits on a puzzle
Perfectly in its place
Completing the puzzle
Beautifully perfect

I want one plus one to equal two happy people
Perfectly complimenting each other
I don't want to see any hurt or pain
The only tears I want to see are those of joy
I want my world to be filled with happiness and bliss
Your world... My world.....
I want it to be perfect

I want everything to be how I envisioned them in my dreams
I want it all
I want all things to just be perfect

Each day you wake up
And you do what you can to make this all come true
You work hard
You sacrifice everything
Your social life, experiences, and many other things
Because you want to prepare yourself for the world
You are planning out ever single detail of your life
Because you want it to be PERFECT
Exactly how you want it
Exactly how it SHOULD be in your mind

Whether it is an enhanced vision of what you had
Or something that you yearned for because you never had it before
You want it
You want it with your heart and soul
You want it with every last breathe
You want it so much that it brings tears to you eyes
You give up your own happiness sometimes because each unbearable day that you experience
You know that one day... Your future will be perfect....
You want it to be perfect........ This is at least something you feel as though you deserve......

And then.........reality crashes down on you and makes you realize that perfection doesn't exist
All that you wanted is there in the world but it is kinda messed up
It isn't exactly what you want but you still want it
It isn't exactly how you would want it to be packaged but you still yearn for it
And then all of these feelings get mixed up and you wonder if you could ever find Perfection
And then your quest for perfection makes you wonder if giving up something that makes you happy...
Really really happy.... is worth it
I mean, could you even find something better?
Was it meant for you to find "perfection"?

We all want things to be perfect
We all have our own perfectly perfect dreams
But sometimes we run away from things...
Because they are not exactly "perfect" to us
We let perfectly flawed people walk into our lives
And we get upset because they are a little off....
They are off from the blueprint that you dreamt up
But other than that they are perfect
But we still want that "perfect" blueprint to come into existence
We can't give up on what we worked years and months, weeks, days, hours, minutes and every painstaking second for .......

Our foolish pride won't deter us for our quest for perfection
We have to have it
We feel like we deserve it
We yearn for it
But at the end of the day....... Does perfection really exist?

1st Place

Always being pushed to the side
Never really been first
Life is like a racing game
In life I want to come in first

Pushing aside the negativity
Avoid being pushed back by the wind
Steady pace as I hold my head up
I have to reach the end

I could never really get that gold
I could never get that win
So I keep trying to get in first place
But it seems like I won't win

I know exactly what I want
But the question is "How?"
Seems like I can't ever come in first
Not then and not even now

The Cut

She came back Thursday
With tears burning inside
Waiting to be released
But instead of shedding those awful tears
She grabbed a pen so she could release
Release the feelings she had inside
Release how hurt she was
She gripped the pen tightly
And she keep writing along and along

"I wish things were this way"
"I wish he felt the same "
She even questioned herself on paper
"Perhaps the problem is me?"
On and on she continued to write
And wouldn't let those tears fall from  her eyes
She had to be the strong one
She had to not cry

Writing and writing and writing away
She sinks into her world
Excludes herself from reality
And wishes she was no more
Yet no one will ever know the pain
The pain that resides within she
She envisions that the paper is her flesh
And her pen cuts with each word she dare not speak
And the blood that trickles down
Makes such lovely words indeed
For her feelings she keeps deep inside
For when she hurts she does not speak

She came home Thursday
with tears in her eyes
Waiting to be  released
She grabbed her trusted notebook
And began to write a piece
Each word she wrote down
cut deep....deep into her soul
For she was slowly dying inside
But the word shall never know

Oh trusted pen and paper
You are her only friend
You are the one she confides in
But when will this end?
She needs to open up to someone else
She needs a "real" friend
Because even though her pen and paper is there
It can't be her only friend

Who is holding you back?

There are troubles in life
There are lessons to be learned
Sometimes it seems like a losing batter
Sometimes life can be hard

Situations may not be the best
Our feelings may be hurt
But you have to decide if you will stand still
Or move forward....
Move forward and face what's stopping you

At the end of the day
Who is stopping you?
Sure people can tell you that "You can't"
But only you can decide if that is true or not

Look in mirror
That's the person who can hold you back
That is the person whose own words can imprison them within the walls of their own flesh
That is the person who will determine how your life will turn out
That person is you

It's crazy how we are our own best friend
We are our own motivator
We are our own pusher
And yet we can be our own downfall at times

Don't let your fear hold you back
Don't let your doubts prevent you from doing something
Don't let your emotions get the best of you
Because at the end of the day
You might think others were holding you back
But the truth is..
It was all you...

You were scared
You were confused
You made an unwise decision and are trying to bounce back
You decided to do this
You decided to do that
It was all YOU
But things can get better
You can move forward
There is no one holding you back.....but you

"Ms. I Need You Today"

Hey, I'm right here!!

Can you see me!

Today is another day!

Today is no longer yesterday!

Today is now TODAY!

I have come to the conclusion that yesterday was just another day

But today is something different

It is a day you need me to play

Play a role in your life

Be the queen that protects the king

For I have value in your life today

Which I didn't have yesterday indeed!

So call me whatever you may like

Because on other days I don't have a name

but I think it is quite fitting to call me

"Ms.I Need You Today"

For other times you don't care

And other times you don't call

But when you need me desperately

You expect me to pick up your every call

You expect me to listen to all you say

You expect me to sympathize

But I can't say how I feel

I have to always wear a disguise 

Hi, I'm "Ms. I Need You Today"

It is sad but true

But don't forget about those yesterdays

When I needed you to come through

And all I need was some words of advice

Or even just a friend

But yesterday you did not need me

So you left me alone once again

Running

I'm running, running, running
Trying to keep up with your pace
I'm running and I'm running
Trying desperately to win this race
I'm trying... I'm trying so hard
But I am also questioning
If it is about time that I finally face defeat

You see sometimes you can go so far
But don't have that extra strength
That strength that will move you past this rut
The strength that will make you win
You give all of yourself
Every single bit
But still it isn't enough
And now you are doubting yourself
Because your best isn't good enough

I'm running, running, running
Trying to keep up with your pace
I'm running and I'm running
Trying desperately to win this race
I'm trying... I'm trying so hard
But I guess it won't ever be
So maybe I should let my legs rest
And finally face defeat

The Man

Mama always reminded me of you
She always said, "daughter be careful because they are out there"
And  you know what
I didn't believe her
She always said that sometimes you can't tell by looking at the outside
She said sometimes words can be spoken but not meant
And I was naive
I didn't believe her
She could not possibly know better
But you know what.....
Mama was right.....

Mama always reminded me of you
She said be weary of the man dressed in fine clothes
Who says he has an untainted heart
She said be weary of the man who says he loves you
However his body language does not show it
She said "be weary my daughter"
 And I thought she was old
I thought she didn't know
But you know what, mama did know

And oh how I wish I would have listened to mama
Mama knew of your kind and she tried to warm me
Yet I was naive
I believe that no one could possibly be that bad
I believed that everyone at least had an ounce of kindness in their heart
But obviously..... I was wrong

That man
The manipulator
The womanizer
The one who just doesn't care
Mama always reminded me of you
She said your kind existed
And I have finally encountered it for myself

Delete

Delete (verb) – to remove or obliterate

Actions speak louder than words.

That is what they always say.

So I won’t listen to a word you say, but I will pay attention carefully.

I will carefully observe your actions

I will examine your response

I will have my ears wide shut

While my eyes continue to watch

I will not utter a single word

I will just continue to observe what you do

Because actions speak louder than words, they say

And your actions will reveal the truth

Oh if life was so simple

If it was just like a social network or a show on tv

You could easily remove me when you wanted to

By simply pressing delete

Actions speak louder than words

And what you are telling me

Is that you don’t want me in your life

You wish you could delete me

You never really said this

But that is what your actions say

So I will not ignore this warning

I will just quietly go away

What’s the point of staying where you aren't wanted?

I mean, your body language tells it all

Because even though your mouth says you care about me

Your actions don’t show this at all

The Song About You

You ... stole my heart...
You... made me smile...
You ... made me believe
That you were different from other guys

You.. make me weak
You.. kiss me so sweet
You... are something I can't
Go a day without thinking of...

You...buy me flowers
You.. hold my hand
You ... make me happy
And I want you to understand

That it's you...
It is you that I have dreamed of
It is you......
It is you I want forever

You... stole my heart
You.. made me smile
You... make me believe
That love exists... even thought I doubted it for a while.....

The Benefits

Heart of Solid Gold

Lips that Only Utter Kindness

So rare it is to find these things

So rare it is to find someone honest

To come across someone

Who places others before themself

We come across it rarely

But when we do

we use it to our benefit

They will strive to make you happy

And you will say "they don't mind"

They will give you their last so you can make it

And you will think they are doing "just fine"

They will never admit they are struggling

Because at the end of the day

They know that there are people worst off

Than they are today

They have a heart of gold

They have lips that utter only kindness

So rare it is to find them

So rare it is to find someone honest

But be careful how you treat these people

They are more fragile than we think

They are more than just a "BENEFIT" to you

They are also people like you and me

Patience

Patience is a virtue

That so many seem to lack

We tap our fingers constantly

Waiting for others to react

But what are we gaining from this? 

Time will still go on the same

Because despite your current actions

There will always be only 24 hours in a day