My Night Under The Stars

Looking into the neverending night sky

I reminense and let life pass me by

For what awaits me after this day

I have no clue but I will keep my fears at bay

Lilacs and Roses

I will await the smell

The birds chirping cheerfully 

As they sit on the rails

From night to day

This is what I shall see

As I lay under the night sky

Waiting for morning to be

On the Road

It's been a long day
A very long day
You have so much more to do
And you want to do it fast

Time is so precious
Our time is the most precious of them all, right?

It's amazing how sometimes we get in our cars and head out to accomplish our tasks at hand, yet we forget about others. We are in a hurry, and we feel as though others should cater to us on the road.
We honk at the slow driver.
We duck in and out of traffic.
Just to make it to where we have to be
We don't want to waste our time....

But what about others.......
Staci is trying to pick up her child who missed the bus after school
David is trying to get to his wife who just went into labor
Anthony is trying to make it to his last college class ever
Everyone on the road has a mission
But why don't we see this?

Instead we put our own selfish needs ahead of others
We think our time is so valuable that we do careless things
We are reckless at the wheel and experience intense moments of rage
But why?
We are all trying to get somewhere
We all have things to do
We all want to live to see tomorrow........
So why possibly deny someone this?

The majority of accidents are caused by carelessness
Carelessness which occurs because someone didn't want to waste their time
They care about themselves
They honked at the slow driver
Then ducked in and out of traffic
Then purposely got in front of another vehicle to piss them off.....
Is it really worth it?
Is jeopardizing your life and the life of someone else really worth it?

You had a long day...
Someone else did too...
Your time is valuable
And others time is valuable too..
You want to make it home today
And so does everyone else
So please be a courteous driver
Don't just think about yourself

My Heart Beats

My heart
My heart beats for you
Poudning with roaring intensity
Almost to the point where I have to try to catch my breath
Because my heart
Is beating
For you

My lungs don't know what to do
I breathe in and out
Out and in
And still I can't
I can't catch my breathe

Overwhelmed by these emotions
I care but I say I don't
I want you to leave but also stay
I am lost
Lost in you

Circulating these different feelings that I have
Making my body move
Giving me life
I want you to go out there and be better than I ever was
I may not know you but I want you to know that I care
Even if you think no one else does
I want you to stay with me in my thoughts but move forward in this world
I want you to conquer your dreams
I want you to pursue happiness

For my heart
It beats for you
And I really wish you the best

The Secret

I have a little secret
That no one else shall know
It tickles my insides
And make me smile and glow

It's a secret that is so visible
Yet so many cannot see
It radiates with the brightest light
Like the light that peaks over the trees

My secret is so big
Yet it can also be considered small
For many may value it slightly
While others may not value it at all

I have a little secret
And it is that I love me
For the greatest gift I ever received
Was the gift of fully understanding me

I love myself
I love my life
I love the people too
And when my skies are constantly gray
I know that one day it will turn back blue

I have accepted myself for who I am
And I won't dwell on who I am not
And although this is unknown to others
To me it means a lot

I have a little secret
And I'm pretty sure that you do too
Because sometimes how we really feel
Is covered by what we do
We give the public what they want
We give them what they want to see
And sometimes the greatest costume we ever wear
Is the one that overshadows who we really should be

Speak Life Into Me

Speak

That is all I need you to do

I need you to speak

I need you to let me get wrapped in your words

Let your words comfort my spirit

Let me become entangled in the mixture of letters and pauses 

These letters and pauses which composes everything that you SPEAK of

Speak 

Speak life into me!!!

Comfort me 

Motivate me

Inspire me

Make me feel!

The power of words

Words can make you feel so many things

Feelings of happiness

Feelings of sadness 

Feelings of doubt

Oh so many feelings

Cover me with a blanket of your words

Kiss me softly with the kindest hello

And tuck me in with your bittersweet goodbyes

Speak

I want you to be inspired

I want you to believe in yourself

I want you to never be afraid to speak

For your words might give life to those who believe they are dead

Speak!

Because some of the best things are often left unsaid

Fish

Wondering around this mystic sea

Hopes and dreams surrounding me

I look up ahead and see a star

I follow it  but it doesn't take me far

I'm trapped underneath

Yet I can breathe

My hopes and dreams still surrounding me

But what I see I cannot get

But what can I do

For I am just a fish

Mornings Come

Mornings come

And Mornings Go

Sun Shines Bright

And then goes low

Day by Day that passes by

I appreciate life And never ask why

For today could really be my last

So I won't dwell too much on the past

I will appreciate the opportunity to live today

For who knows when it's my turn to eternally lay

They Said

They said I couldn't do it
I said I disagree
They said it wasn't worth it
But it means so much to me
They said there is no use in trying
I said I should try at the very least
They said chasing dreams is foolish
I said, "Well a fool I shall be"

So many people try to cut you down
So many people don't believe
That you are capable of many things
You are capable of being anything you wish to be
So many people 
So many opinions
But the only one that matters is yours
Go out and do what you want to do 
Set your goals and try to do so much more!

They said I couldn't do it
Well I'm doing it now
They said it wasn't worth it
But I have found fulfillment somehow
They said there was no use in trying
But I'm happy that I at least tried
They said chasing dreams was foolish
But I'm living my dream right now!

Don't get discouraged
By the negative things people say
Just use it as motivation 
To push through each day
Never shed a single tear over the doubts and thoughts of your friends 

For they will finally believe you
But it will take some time
They will believe in you when they see things happen
Then they will bat their eyes

When all your dreams are reality
When you accomplished what you seeked
When they realize that because they didn't believe in you
They pushed you to succeed

They said so many things
I remember this so well
But I now appreciate what they said
Because it has helped me to excel

The Remedy Is Me

Ten Fingers

Ten Toes

Two Eyes

One Nose

All a part of me

Help me navigate, smell, and see

One mouth 

To voice my opinions

And to finally express my self

One brain to give me the ability

To think critically and apply myself

One heart

To keep me moving

That's what composes me

But subtracting these things

Make me no longer be

One heart

Broken a thousand times

One brain to gather my thoughts

One mouth to express how I truly feel

But I won't say a word

One nose that sniffles so much

Two eyes that shed so many tears

Ten toes that want to walk away

Ten fingers that express how I feel

Typing, Typing, Typing away

Writing down my words

Trying to execute how I feel 

Make my silent words be heard

The best coping mechanism

The best medicine to seek

For my greatest disease is withholding my emotions

But the only remedy is me

Mirror Mirror

Mirror Mirror 

On the Wall

Who is the fairest of them all?

They say beauty is skin deep

But I can't see

How beauty so great is all you see...

Eyes dancing in the mirror 

Wandering around

Waiting for you to cast judgement 

Which will make me silently doubt...

Because if the fairest is all you see

I wonder if you will recognize me

Mirror Mirror

On the wall

Who is the fairest of them all? 

Just wait and please don't answer me yet!

I move back and make sure my feet are set

I clinch my fist and cock back then let go

The shards start to float around the room

I always thought the mirror was my friend

But now I realize it never saw what was within

The Awkward Butterfly

Hello Everyone, 

I would like to announce that I have recently published an eBook. This eBook is available on Amazon. If you click the following link you can be directed to the book: 

The Awkward Butterfly Available on Amazon

This weekend, the book will be available for free. That is Friday August 23rd through Sunday, August 25th. 

This book is in the kindle edition, however, you do not need a kindle to download the book. The app is available for androids, tablets, and many others. Below is the link to the kindle app download: 

Kindle App Download

I hope you enjoy the book. 


Thanks, 
Monica Renata

Statistics

They say we will not make it
They say the reasons why
They back it up with research
And we believe that they don't lie

But who are"they" to tell us this
Who conducted this research
Who placed all of this information
In so many distributed textbooks

We read and read and discover things
We discover we are part of their ongoing tests
And then we start to think to yourself
We think we fit their current mold
So our future is laid out as we speak

They say I will not make make
They say the reasons why
They back it up with research
And say that statistically I won't rise
But I refuse to be another number
I refuse to be what they think
I will not be a statistic
I won't be what they say

Just because I grew up this way
Doesn't mean I won't succeed
Just because my family has these problems
It doesn't mean they will happen to me
Just because I am from this area of the world
Doesn't mean I'm smarter or dumber than the rest
You can't just predict what I will do
I am not a number on your list


I refuse to be what you say
I refuse to submit
I am not a statistic
I will not be a number on your list

I will not be a statistic
I will not be a statistic
I WILL NOT be a statistic

They say I will not make it
They say the reasons why
They back it up with research
And say that statistically I won't rise
But I choose to disagree with them
I will not be a number on their list
I am more than what they believe I am
I am not just a statistic

Rain Rain

Rain Rain go away

Leave this place so I can play

Let those raindrops be no more

And stop pounding on my windows and doors

Stop blocking the future in front of me

It is pouring so hard 

I can barely see

Then I heard thunder in the background

And I know you won't let me leave this time

I see lightning in my  head

I try to back up but I can't

I want to cry

But this shower is overwhelming me

Just let me go

Just let me be free

Rain Rain go away

Leave this place so I can play

Let these tears be no more

For this fighting I can't take it no more

You throw dishes around our house

You tell me there is no way out

In the corner I crouch in fear

As your fists keep pounding against my skin

I don't know if I can survive

It was always bad...but it is worst this time

It feels like I'm about to be knocked out

Yet the rain of your fist just won't stop

I have to finally get the courage to leave

I have to go....

I have to be free

Weekly Challenge 10: Accomplish Something

Hello everyone!!!

I hope you are all having a great time. I will finally start up with my weekly challenges again. :) 

This week I would like you to take the time to accomplish something. Think about something that you want to do. How long have you wanted to accomplish it? Have you ever tried to make it happen? 

At times, we say that we want to do many things, however, we do not put in the effort to make it happen. I know I have been like this many times. I said I wanted something, and I wished and prayed about it, however, I did not put in any effort. I now know that I must put in effort if I want to accomplish anything........

And guess what!!!?? I finally accomplished it. :)

Never be afraid to go after what you want! 

And remember, 

Everything is impossible if you do not attempt to take the first step!!!!

-Monica Renata

Happiness is You

Crystal clear skies

No clouds to dampen my day

The sun shall radiate down

And a smile will be on my face

To know you is to love you

And love you is what I did

And forever the sun will always shine

Because I will always have you near